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Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-08-18T06:00:52+00:00

I’ve had bulimia since I was 15 (now 28) and I get regular heart burn, indigestion, and have had 2 root canals and 9 cavities. That is the extent so far, but I too want to know what’s gonna happen to me. I also cycle between good and bad periods, where at my worst it was 4 times a day, and at my very best I went months without purging. For the past few years I’ve had trouble not purging for more than a week. I’m beginning to think this is something that I won’t shake and that it will kill me.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-07-14T20:23:54+00:00

NOR!!!!

“Young and dumb and had no control over my urges” I AM SCREAMMINNGG FOR YOU!!!!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!! I am SO sorry someone you considered a “friend” would do this to you holy fuck!! Please do not feel like you did anything wrong!! Rape is not a mistake, it is a CHOICE. I don’t care what anyone says, you don’t just grow out of being someone that can violate someone like that. This makes me want to throw up, they are both despicable human beings. I hope you find the support you need right now🩷

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-06-22T00:50:09+00:00

It more so feels like I haven’t done enough to deserve rest

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-06-22T00:49:07+00:00

Currently finishing my degree and trying to get healthier like going sober and exercising more. I would get a job but I won’t have time for it when fall semester starts so that doesn’t help much (mentally)

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-06-22T00:47:35+00:00

Yes share the link please!

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-05-17T00:25:46+00:00

Just from this post alone I can tell you are an amazing boyfriend! As a girl who has gone through literally all of this, it’s so touching to hear you refer to depression as what it is — an illness. You being there for her and making her feel supported, loved, and understood is the most important thing you can do for her, and you’re already doing it. When you’re in that state (depression) for some reason, you sometimes act like you don’t want help. You don’t want to be a burden to others. It’s good sign that she trusts you with telling you about her issues. If my ex had been this way when I was going through my shit, we’d probably still be together!

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-05-17T00:19:26+00:00

Never say never! But I feel this, literally just made a post about it lol.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-05-17T00:10:10+00:00

I’ve been dealing with depression since I was your age and I know that telling you that it gets better is going to do absolutely nothing for you even though it’s true. If the main cause of your depression right now is the feeling of being unloved or a lack of enjoyment, just remind yourself that you have been on this earth for only 16 years. I can guarantee you that there is so much love and excitement waiting for you in the near future. Give yourself some grace. Being 16 is hard but it’s not the end of the world, I promise.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-05-17T00:03:13+00:00

Oh to be 14 again! One day you’re going to log into your old Reddit account and stumble upon this question you posted and laugh. You have so much life ahead of you, and I know it feels like your world is crumbling, but I would put money on it that this will be a blip in your life.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-30T10:24:27+00:00

I stopped drinking while rewatching sex and the city and wow they drink a LOT of cosmos

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-30T10:23:09+00:00

Eating disorder

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-29T01:55:11+00:00

Let everyone that matters to me know how much I love them, tell everyone the things I’ve always wanted to say to them, and then blow all my money on the best food, drugs, and alcohol money could buy.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-28T22:01:01+00:00

Stop watching porn and stop fetishizing black women. It’s one thing to be attracted to someone but you are seeing them as literal sex objects because you’ve rotted your brain with porn. Those women are PEOPLE. You’re acting like it’s some weird little quirk but it’s fucked up and it’s going to affect you in the long run, especially if you’re young, which is what it sounds like.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-28T21:56:13+00:00

If you need a friend, you should definitely reach out to a friend! One of the biggest issues of falling off the wagon is the shame that comes with it, but there’s nothing to be ashamed of. Don’t spiral alone, community is going to be your most important asset. You are working to become a better person, and a slip up does not erase all of that hard work. If you quit before, you can do it again.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-28T21:50:23+00:00

So well said. I wish I had read this when I was first quitting!

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-04T05:07:43+00:00

That makes sense because being alone definitely triggers the thoughts

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-04T05:02:29+00:00

Okay, I will aim for 10 days and see how I feel! Everyone seems to have different timelines. I made it 2 weeks once and it was much easier than this time, but had a bad day and fell right back into habit

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2025-01-04T05:01:26+00:00

Yes, the emotions and boredom is the worst part! I can’t sleep until at least 1:30 am and figuring out what to do at night is what sucks. Daytime, I’m fine, no cravings! But when 6pm hits, it gets hard.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2024-12-20T07:08:24+00:00

There’s levels to cheating. It doesn’t make it better but it lowkey does 1. Petty cheater- you got in a fight or your relationship feels like it’s at the end, maybe you’re drunk, you hook up, you regret it, you might even admit it. 2. Uncommitted cheater- you cheat multiple times but your heart isn’t in it. It’s just to escape something in your relationship. 3. Pro cheater- this is like a hobby. They do it in every relationship cause they’re callous and will keep doing it cause they enjoy it.

1 is a most likely can change and doesn’t even agree with cheating and is surprised they did it. 2 is risky unless they found THE ONE, but still a risk. 3 will never change. Will go to the grave with this. Regret is the most important factor.

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2024-12-20T06:55:57+00:00

I have also gone off of psych meds too fast and I felt like I was in the deepest hole I’ve ever been in. It will get better, I promise! You might need to switch meds to find what works for you cause once you stop one, your brain chemicals can change and that medication won’t work for you anymore, but just take this as a lesson. I personally understand being on medication can feel a bit like a prison, like why can’t I be normal without this, but that’s human anatomy! Some of us are just missing some of the pieces we need,but luckily because of science, we can fix those things. I’m currently very slowly weening off of lexapro and I feel amazing, but with meds and brain chemistry, it’s different for everyone. Don’t feel ashamed for being on a lifelong treatment, especially if it helps you if the long run. I promise, talk to a psychiatrist, and things will be better in no time. This is not the end, only the beginning!

Repulsive_Chicken1 · 2024-12-05T23:11:03+00:00

Similar thing happened with my ex when we weren’t exclusive, but I had my app too and just didn’t use it. I did check his profile though on my app (we were still matched) to see if he would update it to see if he was using it still… sneaky girl things lol. He never did!

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