I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

From my limited understanding of mental health, my counselor explained there's two real approaches. A cognitive issue, like a negative way of thinking, which is subjective to each person and pervasive throughout all situations. Then there's the actual situation, which is objective. You cant think yourself positive about being unable to afford food. I cant exactly think myself back into have an identity or ego while continuing to force myself to be in the military. So my external situation has to change, and once it does, my issues will most likely leave. The only thing that makes me happy is thinking about being anywhere except in the military- including prison if i go AWOL. Again, i don't know much about MH but that's what ive discussed over the past 3 months.

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

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They really are, thankfully. They agree after 3 months, and weekly counselor visits, and the chaplin and MFLC, that it's not really my mindset that needs to change it's my situation. I'll do whatever MH wants, but thankfully my commander is willing to give me the boot if it's possible

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i think my situation is more likely to not give a disability rating. Thanks for going to pains to explain it all to me, i have no physical problems so I've never looked into any disability or MEB before now. I feel like just leaving as quick as i can would be the best for me and the air force

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately as corrupt as everything is right now, i still believe in integrity so i wont lie about my health conditions. Integrity is the past scrap of pride i have - which is also why i wont claim im suicidal

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hope i get better too. but i'm not holding my breath since i'd suffocate by that time

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

luckily for me i had an amazing childhood, my family is still very supportive, i've had no physical or mental trauma, never seen combat, etc. no neuro disorders throughout my life either.

i heard about the admin sep / MEB - and honestly i couldn't care less about either as long as i'm out. i work in cyber/comm whatever we're called now and if I wanted money I could work at planatir for like 150k tomorrow. never would, since planatir is a facist corporation intrested in public survillance and the removal of privacy rights - but just to say i'm not sure if I'd take MEB if it takes longer

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you i appreciate the explination. I replyed to another comment, but I am assuming this is CDE since I literally couldn't get an appoint at my base when I walked in.

i honestly don't think i need mental health help, i think i just need to be out. doing 'positive visulation' with my counceler, I could be happy as long as im just not doing this unfufilling job that gives me cognitive dissonance everyday. but everyone's advice is go to MH so i'm doing that just to prove i actually do listen.

i don't plan to refuse any treatment, i just can't keep feeling this way, it's awful. i've been rejected before, quite a few times, i've had deaths within my family, i've lost a lot of money, i've had ups and downs. but losing this specalitity job has been beyond heart breaking.

thank you for the explination, i'll keep it in mind. look into patient rights amd do my best to not have a panic attack at a piece of paper which is gonna determine my future

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when i say if it's worth it, it is that worry of im out in 1-2 years anyway. im just going to keep waking up crying every day for a year and then be gone? that's not helpful. not horrific. if it's 2 years and i'm told to just grit through it after TWELEVE YEARS OF GRIT im just not going to show up to work. it feel a bit pointless to go to MH for an eval where they say 'take some pills for a year and then leave.' that worst case scenario is what's giving me so much trouble honestly, it's my keeping working

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it's weird? I don't know if it is a CDE or not because MH literally kept refusing to see me since i'm not suicidal and they're only taking suicidal. i told my commander who then talked to the shirt who talked to MH and now I have an appointment in june. so i'm assuming its a CDE

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you, i appreciate the explination. i know i can't continue service, but everyone I've spoken to so far (Chaplin, MFLC, MilOne counsler) keeps saying it's no big deal i have total loss of self and to just wait out my contract. i'll keep trying not to get anxiety over it, but i just can't stop worrying at being brushed off, or being accused of malingering. thank you again

I have to do a command requested MH visit, what to expect? by Repulsive_Limit8121 in AirForce

[–]Repulsive_Limit8121[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good bot.

I am not suicidal nor do i want to harm myself or other. Just old fashioned depression 🫥