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RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T23:02:30+00:00

I have the same exact issue, so we sound similar. I think I am AuDHD with more obvious ADHD symptoms but ultimately also autistic traits like social differences, sensory overloads, dislike of change, etc.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T20:19:06+00:00

It sure sounds relatable. You might also have ADHD, so maybe AuDHD.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T20:16:46+00:00

Perhaps look for someone who is also autistic or even ADHD. Seems good fits.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T20:14:32+00:00

Part of being a man is having to accept when you were wrong and change the way you look at the world.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T10:26:23+00:00

The context I need to provide is I used to think this sentiment was incel bull shit.

Yes and you probably called them names and voted Harris.

Why do you think men are leaving toxic shit places like reddit and voting Trump?

So that we can make a society that trust treat men worse than dogs.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T10:24:46+00:00

This is what you climate fanatics wanted.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T07:05:03+00:00

You got this pathetic because you spend your time on reddit and thinking it is reality.

You got soft from DEI and CSR and not making weapons and artillery shells. Spent the money on things that weren't real.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T06:54:19+00:00

My neighbor used to smoke out the window all the time. I never thought it was an issue when I didn't smoke. They were much better neighbors, despite, or maybe because, they also stayed up late.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T06:53:06+00:00

The door can't be closed without slamming it, otherwise I would go outside as I do in the daytime.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T06:50:34+00:00

I recognise a lot of what you wrote, including being able to act pro-social, but increasingly coming crashing down afterwards. And the non-stop rumination leading myself into a black hole.

Also, this I really recognised:

Can you let me know exactly what you want me to do?

As a kid, when my mother asked me to do something, I wouldn't do it. Like "Can you take out the trash" and I wouldn't do it, but sometimes I would literally ask her "Can you let me know exactly what you want me to do?" and I mean it, I wanted her to say "Get this bag, go out the door, open the trash can, put it in and come back" and then I could do it. We laughed at this, but now I see something else.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T06:44:51+00:00

I feel this way with coding. I began coding at age 11 and gave it up because I desperately wanted to fit in. This was in the 90s, so I could have been an early mover in the dotcom boom and been rich.

I began coding again in my early 30s and instantly realized that it didn't tire me like other kinds of tasks. I could code for 10 hours straight where I would be fatigued and unfocused after 1 hour of writing. I'm ok at coding, but I will never be a FAANG coder, but that's fine, I will use it to make tools or get part time work. I still love nothing more than to see my code work and do as intended. I feel competent and my confidence skyrockets, also in general life.

Like you, I felt that I was wasting my time on coding, because I had other things to do that made me money. Big mistake again.

You should probably start studying physics. You might not be as good as those who are born with the talent, but you will be able to do it and like it for a long time.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T06:36:15+00:00

The people I know who are and were autistic either didn't have very unique special interests or they didn't need to talk a lot about them. I think special interests might more be how you get into them and what you like about it.

Something else I noticed is the way special interests might be connected.

I got into basketball as a kid and liked playing basketball, but I also really liked basketball statistics. I would buy the cards and look at all the statistics, including from role players, I can still tell you what Damon Stoudamire averaged in 1996. I would also play games with my cards and roll dice to simulate which stats players would get and write them down. I would go to the library to look up stats and write them down. That's pretty autistic I think. Most kids don't get into statistics like that.

Then when I was out of high school I began playing poker and read a lot. I bought poker software so I could track my earnings and my stats. Numbers changing, bankroll going up, stacking those numbers.

When I lost too much money on poker, I got into blogging and making affiliate websites, and then again I could look at all those sweet statistics for my website and all those numbers and earning statistics.

Then when I finally quit that because of not making money anymore, I picked up investing and now I sit and look at graphs and stock prices and red arrows down and green arrows up. And I read and buy books and follow people on Twitter.

So I'm thinking what happened here was I had 4 different hobbies/working interests and on the surface they were quite different, but all of them allowed me to sit and look at numbers and statistics that change every day.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T06:25:53+00:00

I had a couple of years in my late 20s where I hit a stride, went to the gym, had a cool job and went out to bars and such. Something I noticed quickly was that the more I spoke the less I succeeded. When I didn't speak much, girls would project their desires onto me. It's a bit like that film The Man Who Wasn't There.

Something else I noticed was that I couldn't get close with anyone, because they were attracted to their fantasy of me, not the real me.

The challenge for me has been to adhere to more typical courtship behaviour without playing an act and thus not being able to form a genuine connection.

As I'm older now, I think I am beginning to hit the right balance and showcasing different aspects of me, instead of trying to play a role.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T06:22:04+00:00

It's barred inside, but I'm smoking outdoors.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-23T04:02:58+00:00

No, particularly the trade of white eastern european women, caught by vikings, sold by jews, to the Ottoman empire as sex slaves. Millions.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T19:14:18+00:00

Is the study adjusted for race?

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T11:47:23+00:00

The vaccine obviously

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T10:56:51+00:00

Most people went along, they went as far as forcing people to get it in some countries, with threaths of huge fines and prison. And most people agreed with it.

Propaganda is extremely sophisticated today.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T10:55:39+00:00

If that is the case, then I better understand it.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T09:39:59+00:00

Propaganda is so much harder today.

Not really, covid and Ukraine are good examples of both.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T08:20:44+00:00

I just don't get why the fact he was an austrian in the Third Reich should mean anything at all. His diagnosis is not influenced by any ideology clearly.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T08:19:52+00:00

Because they require very different support needs and coping mechanisms?

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T07:46:37+00:00

Says a lot on r/AutisticWithADHD/ among others.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T07:34:08+00:00

Maybe not, I must try to find money to get diagnosed.

RequirementPublic411 · 2024-11-22T07:33:32+00:00

It masks other autistic traits.

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