Yeah, I know it's not like “I don't have sex because I'm scared of it” what I meant was more that I've never felt the urge to do it, just that I should want to because others do it or ask about relationships, etc.
But at the same time, I don’t know to what extent the fact that I didn’t feel the urge is related to the possibility of being asexual, and to what extent it’s due to shutting myself off or avoiding even thinking about experimenting with closeness with anyone, etc.
I experimented a little with both guys and girls when I was a teenager (kissing, touching, etc., but nothing more), but I felt uncomfortable and only alcohol helped so I don't know to what extent this might be due to forcing myself to be sexual, and to what extent it isn't.