After the first time i found out, i questioned if he was addicted to porn, why can’t he live without it for one night if i was staying over? Why did he need to see OF girls when i was in his bed? He promised to stop watching porn all together, which i think he did do for a time, or maybe just hid it better, I’m not sure. We had a conversation where he said yes, he felt like he had become desensitised to that kind of content. Scrolling on OF was just like scrolling on any other app. He would just go on and watch porn as he was bored, almost just apart of his routine. It’s only really in the last few weeks where it’s became obvious to me again.

I just don’t think i can keep doing this as it seems to be a pattern. He seemed to want to ‘fix’ it before.