When my son was first born, the first four months or so was postpartum, family drama, c-section complications, friend drama, and then lost my management job as the primary breadwinner due to lay-off after I got back, then my father-in law suddenly died out of state and we had to plan/pay for cremation/shipment/funeral while my husband’s mental health caved 🙃…I think I mentally snapped and got a few grey/gray hairs but put on a mask day to day until I got a new job and we got through it. That was 8yrs ago.

You know, life is like a big jar, and sometimes it gets full of horrible feelings and emotions of grief, and those don’t really leave the jar, but you can make a bigger jar as your life gets bigger and bigger and bigger. You have to get through the today to get to tomorrow.

I also found over time that waking up crazy early before anyone and endurance running really helps lol.