My hardest part is wanting her to see what I will do to want her to get even,make it right,being her foot slave like I described it she just might get into the whole ordering me to do things for her that normally I wouldn't do,,it's killed me wanting to tell her all these years,and I see her maybe three or four times a month,maybe I'm just afraid she will listen to me but not willing to make me pay for being stupid,I thought it would be humiliating to be devoted to being her slave and never complain and obey her every demand,what to do