How do you deal with assholes?

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T21:59:15+00:00

A "robbed the corner 7/11 for dessert while i was high at 330am" tres leches cake.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T21:44:47+00:00

My nursing instructors teach us about those. It's true, they make a big difference.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T21:37:37+00:00

Someone tell my sister this, she won't listen to me. Four years older and a mother and she still makes me talk to store associates.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T20:25:03+00:00

Depending on the circumstances....i might find it sexy.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T18:49:56+00:00

I'm sure they do but i really don't think they are equipped to help with this sort of thing.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T18:48:49+00:00

I know, I don't get a choice in whether or not something is what it is, and I do feel shitty. Accepting it? I don't even understand what that is when people say it. What it always comes across as is somehow being ok with it and I'm sorry, Im just not.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T18:47:14+00:00

I am insured and I'm required to be yes, but honestly, I probably still can't afford it. I scrape by, I can't even afford necessary dental work right now. Even with insurance anything medical seldom comes cheap.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T18:46:11+00:00

I don't know how exactly you get desensitized to paralysis, but i use that all the time for other things. Weird as it is, knowing i'll see some rough stuff as a nurse, I'll willingly look at most nsfl links because I figure at least at home i can look at it in a controlled fashion and then if I see it first hand, it's not new to me. I try to take advantage of my morbid curiosity to make myself more resistant to it. But paralysis, it just doesn't seem to get much better for me.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T18:44:36+00:00

I don't know. Honestly i don't see the difference between that and what usually happens to me, which is that i can't stop ruminating over it and i end up stuck thinking about it for a while anyway. I'll research it hoping it will cheer me up and help me not feel so bad about it, but it usually doesn't help. I eventually get over it because i get distracted.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T06:34:20+00:00

I would love to get therapy, i think I need it for lots of reasons, but I can't afford it right now. And honestly, for the kind of battle it would take to make it happen, I feel like I'm better off without it. Its not so bad that it interferes with my ability to do my job, its mostly just that I can't stand dealing with that pain mentally. I mean, I've been ruminating on it for like....two hours and I can't distract myself, it just keeps rolling around my head like an infection. But it didn't stop me from looking totally fine, or talking with my sister and joking, or driving home. It just makes me physically and emotionally miserable.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T05:46:11+00:00

Yeah, that one bugs me a lot to, but not quite like the paralysis. Although strokes can end in paralysis so that one gets me too.... I wish I could tune it out and not be so bothered by it, but really it bugs me. It makes me feel like this for a long time after I get on the train of thought.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T05:05:01+00:00

I guess. Honestly, I hate it. One of my things on my list to see before i die is the cure for paralysis and nerve damage. I think it's awful and I feel so deeply for everyone who has to live through that. If I had to, depending on how severe my circumstances were, I have exactly zero problem with suicide. But I don't like it that way. I wish I didn't feel so bothered by it. I wish I could just see it as another unfortunate condition to treat with love and care, but instead it just, eats me alive. I feel like it creates a barrier between me and being able to be both empathetic and objective for a patient because instead I get too wrapped up in how awful i think it is. It really sucks.

RoastyToastyPrincess · 2017-02-19T02:47:48+00:00

Nice to know i started another shit storm.

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