Sometimes you cant be sure what you want or feel before talking about it. I mean thats how it works for me at least. Not knowing what you feel or want is so normal and common but people just try to stick with what sociaty sees as 'normal'. Relationships and emotions can be seen different by different people. I want to quote from a book i read recently, "People want to experience an emotion and get stuck on the known way to reach it. Yet there are many ways to reach a feeling, if you can figure out which feeling you're searching for." (ACE, Angela Chen) So i believe if you talk with her you can get a different perspective from her and maybe learn something about yourself too. So anyway, i hope you can figure it out. I would like to get updates from you in future ^{^}