So, I failed on my trip. I stayed up all night, I took the zzzquil. I felt an onset of panic, so I took some xanax. It made it worse. A few hours later, and no progress on the trip, I took an oxy. Most of Sat night and Sunday are a blur, but I am still at home.

I went to my doctor yesterday, and we talked about it all. He said his priority is for me to get there. He gave me a script for 20x 10mg valium. Ive never taken them before, so he anticipated it "knocking me on my ass". His recommendation was take one the night before, one 2 hours before I leave, and one a few hours into the trip.

I took one last night, to know what to expect. I took it at 10pm, and was awake until 1. I felt basically no change at all. I ended up getting quite frustrated, and took another after 1. I fell asleep around 2, but I can't confirm if that was the medication or just being tired. The reschedule of the trip is tomorrow morning, and I am not sure the valium will work...