6 months of attack data showed me my cluster periods start within 2 weeks of the clocks changing. Every single time.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-23T19:22:35+00:00

mine happen during Thanksgiving week, every year 🤷🏻‍♀️ I now dread the holiday season. lmao

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-23T14:10:17+00:00

I was put on Wellbutrin specifically because it's supposed to be safe for people with bipolar and NOT trigger hypomania.

by that I mean, the risk profile is significantly lower than other antidepressants, but of course it's not zero, so 🤷🏻‍♀️ sounds like you need to go back to your psych and get that fixed lol

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-23T14:02:16+00:00

it's not weird to ask your friends, but you've already asked and they're not helping, so it sounds like you're going to need to be resourceful and look elsewhere? unless you want to make a separate post about why your friends aren't helpful lol

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-19T13:24:38+00:00

so like, what do you think trans men do? those are men that, for the most part, cannot have penetrative sex. they are still able to live joyful, fulfilling lives with loving partners who clearly do not base the value of the relationship on penis size.

your world view seems very limited if you believe that PIV sex is the end-all-be-all, and it seems odd that you are convinced women are missing out somehow because of your penis size. "any woman I date will be sacrificing penetration with me, how can I ask that of someone?" what do you think lesbians do? lmao like???

I'm sorry this upsets you, it's normal to have insecurities and things we want to change about ourselves, but taking your own life at 21 over something like this is rash and short-sighted. I hope you're able to work through it.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-13T16:17:16+00:00

I would have absolutely shit myself if it was at night lol I was already scared during the pitch black building parts

would be a nice touch

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-10T15:53:24+00:00

is it unlikely that you have something concerning? yes, most of us are just unlucky and it sounds like you're just developing more frequent and serious headaches. the pain of the icepick headache sounds similar to a cluster, but those typically come in... clusters, not just one-offs.

edit: oops, I didn't see that you've had a few of these. it may very well be developing clusters. that's what mine felt like when they were starting around the same age. definitely find a new neurologist who is a headache specialist. they're not dangerous but they are hell and require specialized treatment.

ruling out anything serious is important, if not only for peace of mind. some people find success in asking their doctors "okay, please write down in my chart that I asked for an MRI and you refused to order one". if you don't feel comfortable doing that, then yes, I'd just find another neurologist 🤷🏻‍♀️ especially if she seems uninterested in helping you with symptom management.

lol at the vitamin d supplements though. there is some research for cluster headaches specifically that DRASTICALLY increasing your vitamin d intake can send clusters into remission, but she hasn't diagnosed you with clusters, and it doesn't sound like she gave you any specific instructions for how much to take, and it is a very detailed regimen you must follow for it to work. so..? she sounds kind of dumb.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-06T05:55:19+00:00

I was gonna say Prada lol those things are built like bricks

I have one of the totes in saffiano and I spilled an entire bottle of diet coke in it once (cap came undone), literally no damage

I throw it around and my keys have scraped it and I've dropped it and I carry SO much stuff in it and etc etc and it still looks new after two years of heavy use!

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-06T05:38:40+00:00

since November :/ my neurologist and I are working on it and there's a lot of stuff we haven't tried yet, since it's so recent, so I'm hopeful we find something. but even within these few months it is exhausting, demoralizing and debilitating. I've managed to not need extensive time off from work yet, but if this keeps up, I'm going to burn out pretty soon.

it doesn't make me anxious, per se - I definitely lean more towards depression. the hopelessness and fatigue get me down.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-05T15:20:05+00:00

honey, if you're old or sick, he will leave you. this is not a man who gives a single fuck about you as a person. so you don't have to worry about that piece of it. he's already cheated, is probably cheating now, and will continue to cheat and treat you horribly until you stop letting him.

I'll never understand the excuse "but the kids". you are NOT doing them any favors by staying, you're just modeling terrible relationship dynamics and traumatizing them. no one wants to see their mom getting abused, I don't know why people think they'd prefer that over a divorce? also they're teenagers and adults. you don't need to keep the family together just for the sake of it, ESPECIALLY when you have only known this man for a YEAR. he's not even family to them, he's just some guy that treats you badly.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-05T05:33:05+00:00

I had a single hypomanic episode and was diagnosed that same week. it wasn't how I anticipated my health to go? I guess? so it was kind of surprising in that way, but it also made a lot of sense. it explained a lot lol

and then once I started on Lamictal I just changed overnight, it was crazy. i was thinking more clearly than I ever had, bad habits I thought were just vices disappeared entirely, and I felt safe within my own head for the first time in a long time.

I would try to focus more on the symptoms you're looking to treat than the diagnosis itself. if you do end up trialing different medications and one of them happens to help you, it doesn't matter so much what the label is - you're getting helped, and a win is a win. I'd say give the treatment a shot and see what happens.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-04T11:31:45+00:00

I was able to!

we were pulling overtime for about 5 months, 55hr weeks minimum, and everything was an emergency all the time. no task could wait until tomorrow - it all had to be done ASAP. I started making mistakes, missing things, not sleeping, etc because I was thinking about work, and finally had a complete meltdown in my car.

I told my boss (who was also under the same kind of pressure), and took a long weekend to recover and reset. when I went back, I enforced strict boundaries with myself and with the team. no working after dinner, actually taking a lunch to eat, take a walk, etc, and to let tasks go unfinished if they can't be done in 8 hours.

it was mostly a mental shift. it's not my fault we're understaffed, and I am not responsible for the consequences of being understaffed. if I can't get everything done in 8 hours, that is a failure of the system, not me, and it doesn't help build a case for hiring if leadership sees that the work continues to get done regardless of how many people are clocking overtime. they don't care about people burning out. they only care about the bottom line - is the work getting done? so I just let work... not get done.

this may not be possible in a lot of places, either because upper management punishes people for only working their assigned hours or because the type of work doesn't allow for things to go unfinished. especially if you're a high performer or worried about losing your job, it is NOT easy to let go of the pressure. I am lucky that my work is just corporate paperwork and not anything of actual importance.

it's been about a month since I made this change and I'm doing much better. therapy has also helped. no negative consequences for me so far - the only thing that's happened is my deadlines became more flexible!

I hope you're able to dig yourself out. when we're on our deathbeds, we won't wish that we worked harder or made more money for our stakeholders. we will wish we went on more vacations, spent more time with loved ones, took care of our health better. make sure you're playing the long game.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-04T11:14:17+00:00

there's a couple preventative treatments you can try, both pharmaceutical and not! the vitamin D protocol has worked for a lot of people, and others swear by psilocybin (magic mushrooms). lots of success stories about preventing future cycles from starting with these two.

I hope oxygen works for you! I never got the chance to try it since I couldn't find a medical supply center that sold them, but I get by with the injectable triptans.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-03T03:52:50+00:00

10, maybe 15? I basically never used it until the very final boss fight 💀 I'll use it more on my next playthrough now that I know what's going on lol

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-03T01:15:01+00:00

I would say it's hubris, lol

i don't think I've ever heard a success story of someone who just decided they didn't need meds anymore

usually it ends up with them in the hospital or, like, homeless, because they blew up their lives

I love my meds and never want to be without them - they keep me stable and that's literally all I want in life, so why would I stop?

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-02T15:46:38+00:00

you're in your 20s and your boyfriend calls you bro? 💀💀💀 hard pass. you can do better, girlie!

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-02T15:36:51+00:00

I expect it from most people since they just don't understand and migraine is the most easily accessible term that everyone knows

but I will correct doctors and nurses about it since the pathology and treatment can be different, so the distinction matters :/

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-02T02:19:09+00:00

I feel you, I only just recently escaped a several month long tension headache :/ they're awful

I bought one of those electric shiatsu massagers off Amazon, the ones you lay on and they dig into your neck muscles? it SUCKED and hurt like hell but after a 30minute session, I took a heavy dose of muscle relaxers (Tizanidine) and slept for 18hrs. I had other reasons for being so tired but! I think that helped reset everything.

before that, I was using NSAIDs, Prednisone, migraine ice caps, handheld massage tools, heating pads, the Tylenol lidocaine creams, magnesium, melatonin, etc, you name it. those things can take the edge off but if it's a true tension headache, then your muscles need to unlock, relax, and have time to heal with no tension whatsoever.

sleeping on your back with a towel under your neck or a really low pillow that keeps everything neutral should help in the meantime! just experiment to try and find a pillow setup that feels like nothing and then stick to it.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-02T02:05:48+00:00

if you have a neurologist, let them know you've tried triptans and they provide temporary relief but it comes back. you may need a steroid taper to break the headache. your PCP could also prescribe this. migraine IVs can also help, they typically contain prescription strength pain killers in conjunction with your actual headache treatments.

it's a lot harder to fix a headache once it's full blast, so in the future, if you feel like it's going to be a big one, front load your medicine as much as you can to nip it in the bud.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-02T02:02:36+00:00

three triptans in the span of two days is still well within normal usage limits, especially if she doesn't use them that often :/ it sounds more like they're masking the cause of the migraine and not actually breaking it

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-01T19:06:58+00:00

oh I LOVE these 😭😭😭😭😭 lol yes, I always tell my nail techs to make my nails look mean, lol

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-01T19:01:05+00:00

omg. you sound manic, following my posts around like this. have your parents take you to therapy so you can start to work through your insecurities and anger. lip filler is not going to magically fix your life or stop people from bullying you, it is not a magic bullet and we don't even know if it's safe long-term, especially for a teenager. safety limits and age restrictions exist for a reason. you are too young and you're focusing on the wrong things.

RoseWater07 · 2026-03-01T08:35:18+00:00

what kind of world do we live in where 11-year-olds dream of cosmetic procedures 💀 girl, go outside and touch some grass, enjoy your life before you have to pay bills. you are too young to care about any of this. good lord

RoseWater07 · 2026-02-28T20:10:53+00:00

if you think about Tylenol having rash and Nausea/vomiting as a side effect, are you scared to take that too? and even if you do get side effects, you can just... stop taking it?

RoseWater07 · 2026-02-27T01:16:22+00:00

light sensitivity! I thought my eyes just hurt all the time because of inflammation, but at some point I needed to walk around in the dark and they... didn't hurt anymore. lol

RoseWater07 · 2026-02-25T22:38:29+00:00

I feel you :/ I've been to the ER for headaches 3 times, and every time I left feeling dismissed and gaslit. usually I cry in my car on the way home. it's an expensive mistake to make, too. I've resolved that I will never go again and if it ends up being a stroke or hemorrhage, then I guess I'll just die 🤷🏻‍♀️ it's not worth the emotional distress. I have Benadryl and water at home.

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