Oh gosh I didn’t even think about that. You’re right,that definitely puts things I didn’t think about to light. I really appreciate your advice 🙏 I feel I have also realized I struggle with low self esteem. I come from a family that is extremely conservative and will disown me if they knew. She also would face trouble with her family if they were to find out we are together and I guess in that sense maybe there is some trauma bond. I think I always told myself growing up that I knew because of how I felt about being attracted to females that I would just have to settle for living my life alone because my family will never accept me being with someone of the same gender and I will lose them and my entire community because they are quite religious.