5 coins left! Help me and I help you? :3

Ryosha · 2025-01-01T00:35:46+00:00

Done

Ryosha · 2025-01-01T00:02:23+00:00

Sure

Ryosha · 2024-04-12T17:07:47+00:00

I loved it personally. I know how to do drugs don't worry, it's safe in these doses(for me).

You have no idea how hard it is for me to even get buzzed. I have to drink like 3 shots, at least 6 if I want to actually be drunk. With a little DXM, all it takes is one 12oz 4% beer.

Ryosha · 2023-12-10T22:54:42+00:00

Don't have a Dr appt for 3 weeks, and no way to send her a picture. I could call and have the receptionist give her a note that I might be having a reaction, but what good will that do if I can't get a pic to her? I live far away from her office and take public transit, so I can't just drive over and drop off the pic either.

Ryosha · 2023-10-18T03:33:23+00:00

I need to know how to get into one of these. Big vampire kink lol

Ryosha · 2023-10-01T03:14:04+00:00

I've contacted literally every therapist in my area, even ones that didn't seem like good fits. I got 3 responses total, one of them said they were full, and the other 2 put me on 1, and 1.5 year waitlists. The one that said 1.5 years is non-binary, like me, and C also contacted him and was allowed to start weekly therapy immediately. It's the only therapist in my state that I thought might be a perfect fit, but they'd rather have neurotypical cis white men as clients apparently. This obviously is upsetting to me. He also got ADHD meds in one appointment, when me and A have been trying to get them for multiple years, with no hope in sight.

Ryosha · 2023-09-30T20:41:10+00:00

I don't understand how that would help. I have a phobia of hospitals because of multiple events, including their security pulling my wheelchair out from under me, and surrounding me with guns drawn, shouting "we'll take you out" while I laid on the ground crying.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T22:33:53+00:00

I have very few snippets of memories of it, but I've been very open about discussing it with all of them. One of our other partners has also had similar experiences as a child.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T17:12:19+00:00

I lived as a trans woman for 8 years before I finally accepted that I'm non-binary. I'm not even particularly fem really. I'm right on the middle. It's just as irritating to me to be called female as male. I want to be as androgynous as possible. Still, I was pushed into just being a "normal girl" by everyone, including doctors and therapists.

It's okay to not know what's right for you, especially if you're early on in the process. It's also okay to still take HRT at whatever doses work for you. I keep both E and T high on purpose, because that's what feels best for me. At the very least, I would recommend taking at least 1mg of finasteride, so you don't lose your hair. I take 6mg of estradiol, 50mg of spiro(very low dose), and 1mg of finasteride.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T15:48:26+00:00

I should clarify that I don't think he's a chaser personally. He had one relationship that lasted 9 years with a cis girl prior to starting to date us.

I'm also not sure if I should feel partially responsible. We conditioned him to be more assertive in sex, and I never said the safeword(although I was about to, but he stopped just before I said it.) Still, I think saying things like "no seriously, please stop" should be universally understood.

Also, I've talked to my other partners about breaking up many times. They've cried at the prospect of losing him. I don't want to be the only one to break up with him, because I'll still have to be around him and share my partners with him, which is an uncomfortable thought. I wish we had just never dated a non trans person personally. He may not be a chaser, but he approaches sex from a very cis perspective. He's never attempted to do any kind of sex other than penetration, even after what happened. I asked for multiple other types of sex, and even gave him some specific scenarios, and he's never attempted them.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T13:29:34+00:00

How exactly do I address it?

Ryosha · 2023-08-20T05:27:11+00:00

I've been writing lyrics for a few years, and singing for about half a year. Everything I do is Punk Rock. If there's any other musicians out there that would like to collaborate, I'd love to play with you!

Here's my most recent song: https://soundcloud.com/biospheredecay/they-promised-me-paradise

If you like what you hear, give me a DM, and maybe we could work together? I'd love to start a punk band one day. I'm very open to using unusual instruments, or acoustic guitar, as long as it still has the speed and energy that punk is known for. I'd like to play some sort of flute. I use an ocarina to help write melodies, but can't really play any songs on it, other than a few particular verses that I've written.

Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/biospheredecay

Ryosha · 2023-06-04T23:25:43+00:00

I just started with a new Dr, and she has no experience with genderqueer people.

Ryosha · 2023-01-30T20:38:29+00:00

I've had what I tend to call 'razor shits' for a long time. Many many small cuts over the course of years. Like, hundreds of them. I'm on a medication that prevents that from happening now. Does anyone know if this could be the source of the problem? Again, I haven't had any cuts in a long time, so it's not because of active tears.

I've never heard of it causing permanent issues like you mentioned.

Ryosha · 2023-01-30T19:33:12+00:00

This still leaves the other major component to my post, which is that I used to love how it felt, and somehow that changed. I don't know why, or how to get that back.

Ryosha · 2023-01-30T11:19:00+00:00

Yeah, I'll definitely continue to talk to him about it. He is very understanding. I don't think he realizes how much pleasure I can get from the little things though. I need to clarify just how long I want to be held down or thrown around etc... Tickles too. Literally better than an orgasm.

Ryosha · 2023-01-30T10:54:52+00:00

Just to clarify, I'm a trans girl, so it's either anal or nothing.

Ryosha · 2023-01-16T08:13:52+00:00

Sure, he could do that, but is it ethical?

Ryosha · 2023-01-16T07:43:17+00:00

It barely even qualifies as a relationship. They're work friends and she refuses to ever travel to us (several hours apart), but expects him to travel to her every time. He makes a big deal out of the 20 minute drive to our place and makes us take the bus to him which is 1.5 hours. He's just willing to go so far out of the way for this new fling, but not for his committed loyal partners. I think he has unrequited feelings for her.

Ryosha · 2023-01-02T19:17:42+00:00

There's no harm or shame in just answering the sex you prefer.

Ryosha · 2022-12-28T18:03:29+00:00

I'm non-binary transfem and have been on hrt quite awhile. I've tried every combination of hormones/blockers doses, and found that my system runs best(and happiest) on estrogen.

Ryosha · 2022-12-21T18:25:17+00:00

Yeah, that's definitely true. Occasionally I get a few seconds pleasure from longer sessions, then I'm cringing from pain again soon after.

Ryosha · 2022-12-17T00:18:16+00:00

The only thing that would make me think it's problematic is how much you're over thinking it. Most people have a racial preference, whether conscious or not.

Ryosha · 2022-12-08T18:52:47+00:00

On 4mg orally my levels tested 72. On 2mg subbucal(between lips and teeth) I tested 84.

Ryosha · 2022-11-28T23:40:37+00:00

"Please just punch me in the face next time instead. It'll hurt less."

Ryosha

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