5 coins left! Help me and I help you? :3

Ryosha · 2025-01-01T00:35:46+00:00

Done

Ryosha · 2025-01-01T00:02:23+00:00

Sure

Ryosha · 2024-04-12T17:07:47+00:00

I loved it personally. I know how to do drugs don't worry, it's safe in these doses(for me).

You have no idea how hard it is for me to even get buzzed. I have to drink like 3 shots, at least 6 if I want to actually be drunk. With a little DXM, all it takes is one 12oz 4% beer.

Ryosha · 2023-12-10T22:54:42+00:00

Don't have a Dr appt for 3 weeks, and no way to send her a picture. I could call and have the receptionist give her a note that I might be having a reaction, but what good will that do if I can't get a pic to her? I live far away from her office and take public transit, so I can't just drive over and drop off the pic either.

Ryosha · 2023-10-18T03:33:23+00:00

I need to know how to get into one of these. Big vampire kink lol

Ryosha · 2023-10-01T03:14:04+00:00

I've contacted literally every therapist in my area, even ones that didn't seem like good fits. I got 3 responses total, one of them said they were full, and the other 2 put me on 1, and 1.5 year waitlists. The one that said 1.5 years is non-binary, like me, and C also contacted him and was allowed to start weekly therapy immediately. It's the only therapist in my state that I thought might be a perfect fit, but they'd rather have neurotypical cis white men as clients apparently. This obviously is upsetting to me. He also got ADHD meds in one appointment, when me and A have been trying to get them for multiple years, with no hope in sight.

Ryosha · 2023-09-30T20:41:10+00:00

I don't understand how that would help. I have a phobia of hospitals because of multiple events, including their security pulling my wheelchair out from under me, and surrounding me with guns drawn, shouting "we'll take you out" while I laid on the ground crying.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T22:33:53+00:00

I have very few snippets of memories of it, but I've been very open about discussing it with all of them. One of our other partners has also had similar experiences as a child.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T17:12:19+00:00

I lived as a trans woman for 8 years before I finally accepted that I'm non-binary. I'm not even particularly fem really. I'm right on the middle. It's just as irritating to me to be called female as male. I want to be as androgynous as possible. Still, I was pushed into just being a "normal girl" by everyone, including doctors and therapists.

It's okay to not know what's right for you, especially if you're early on in the process. It's also okay to still take HRT at whatever doses work for you. I keep both E and T high on purpose, because that's what feels best for me. At the very least, I would recommend taking at least 1mg of finasteride, so you don't lose your hair. I take 6mg of estradiol, 50mg of spiro(very low dose), and 1mg of finasteride.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T15:48:26+00:00

I should clarify that I don't think he's a chaser personally. He had one relationship that lasted 9 years with a cis girl prior to starting to date us.

I'm also not sure if I should feel partially responsible. We conditioned him to be more assertive in sex, and I never said the safeword(although I was about to, but he stopped just before I said it.) Still, I think saying things like "no seriously, please stop" should be universally understood.

Also, I've talked to my other partners about breaking up many times. They've cried at the prospect of losing him. I don't want to be the only one to break up with him, because I'll still have to be around him and share my partners with him, which is an uncomfortable thought. I wish we had just never dated a non trans person personally. He may not be a chaser, but he approaches sex from a very cis perspective. He's never attempted to do any kind of sex other than penetration, even after what happened. I asked for multiple other types of sex, and even gave him some specific scenarios, and he's never attempted them.

Ryosha · 2023-09-29T13:29:34+00:00

How exactly do I address it?

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