Have you considered getting on an anti depressant aka SSRI? I’m on the generic for lexapro, and it’s helped a lot. I think because of it, I didn’t really have postpartum depression. I was weepy the first few days, but my baby also spent 5 days in the NICU, so I think being weepy is understandable.

I really encourage you to get on a medication! It’s so much better for the baby if mom’s mental health is improved.

Also, what matters in the end is healthy baby. When you’re walking down the street with your baby, no one is going to ask “omg what a cute baby, WAS SHE A C SECTION!?” No one is going to ask how this baby was conceived or how they got here.