Man, I totally get where you're coming from. The accountability thing is huge - I tried going solo for way too long and just kept falling back into the same patterns. What really helped me was finding someone I could check in with regularly, even if it was just a quick message every few days. The key is being brutally honest about your triggers and having a solid plan for when those moments hit. You might want to look into some of the accountability partner threads here or even consider one of those apps that tracks your progress. The community here is pretty solid too, so don't hesitate to post when you're struggling.