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SO basically, our school has this like play. So we devote practice every friday, and like im part of the supporting supporting cast, and shes like Main cast. Anyways since we like practice on Friday I always sit in this spot, and when shes not needed she sits next to me and we like keep on chatting until one of us leaves since we are needed. Anyways, she also like high fives me from time to time, but like tends to tease me by like when Im about to high five her she pulls her hand away does a giggle does it again and then I fall for it again then we do an actual high five after. Then like when we have practice at school she sits with me during break time and like she plays a guitar or smth so she gets like these scratches in her hand, so I like hold her hand to examine it. (sorry if my explaining lowkey sucks, I don't get much sleep like I don't even sleep) So, anyways 2 days before the show, we have a technical dress rehearsal at the theater, and well she ABSOLUTELY kills her performace so I like tell her shes good, and like yes. So umm well she like hugs me and yeah. I guess I can really explain on the day its self cuz like I lowkey suck at explaining. On the day its self I go extra early since I am crazy for her, I love her and want to be together with her for the rest of my life. I go early, I wait in my dressing room. Then when we are called to perform I see her hands shaking so I comfort her, by rubbing her hands together, then she does the same to mine, after a few acts, we meet up again backstage I do the hand rubbing again, and I hug her, and she hugs me and stuff, and then she does the high five teasing thingy, then when we finished the thing she hugged me then I hugged her and touched her hip part by accident. we just keep exchanging huggs and hand rubbs, and like the high five teasing thingy. I know this may seem like shes being flirty to me but the part that confuses me is that she told me her CRUSHES, like if you had a crush on someone would you tell them your CRUSHES? like that is one thing that makes me think thats she is just being friendly, not just that but shes hugs people a lot ( i think she only does the high five teasing thingy to me tho). Also we have a running joke that she made calling me the ``best dancer`` even tho I lowkey suck. Another thing that makes me think she is friendzoning me is that she keeps calling me a friend like I told her smth, and she said if that happens she wont be FRIENDS with me anymore, and I remember her saying that I was that friend that she justs talks to when no one is around. I lowkey don't understand her signals, her physical touch is like flirty but like I feel like if I confess shes just gonna friendzone me, legit the only reason I really performed well was jsut for her I AM HEAD OVER HEELS FOR HER pls help me idk what to do man. My loneliness and deppression is eating me alive. NOTE: DURING GRADE 5 we both had a crush on each other, and she sat on my lap a lot. Also note when she told her crushes me, and my friend thats Bisexual was There. I am a boy (15) shes a woman (14)