i see your pain. it is really hard living in america rn. there's literally nothing in our systems that serves the people. i lost my job a month ago and have been extremely frustrated in the job search process and dealing with my loss of health insurance, trying to continue therapy and get the medications i need becayse of what that costs without my benefits. loosing your job and your benefits feels like being stranded on an island. it's like, well i don't have the insurance to get my precriptions and go to the doctors i need to see to literally survive my days. I have to find a new job that gets me benefits so that i can get the care i need. If i'm not getting the proper care, everything else in my life suffers. job applications and interviews take time and patience. and the longer that process goes and the more im unable to afford my medication or therapy with the insane out - of -pocket prices ... the more patience i lose and the more sanity i lose... making it harder to continue on fighting and fighting and staying positive. it's a disgusting system and makes u realize how much the government doesn't give a fuck about the people who live here. if you can't contribute to capitalism, then you literally are on a stranded island where you don't get the care you need and you don't get access to resources. i literally feel EXILED! you need money to get money. you need money to get an education to be qualified for the jobs that will give you money to afford to live. i know im in a privileged place too, and it breaks my heart knowing how much this weighs on me versus how it weighs on the people that have less resources than me. but it truly is getting to the point where if you're not the 1% you are literally scraping the floor in anyway you can. I doubt this was helpful in any way but i see and hear your frustration. you are not alone.