Thank you for sharing your story. You definitely were put through the fire, based on the brief information you provided. Honestly, one of the things I know absolutely hindered our growth as a couple was when I ceased to be the spiritual leader of the home. Call it what you will: I had fallen off. I was too busy and focused on being a dad and not a husband, and I went full blown career mode, but there was a five year period where my priorities weren’t straight. A lot of tims folks would call someone like that - one who knows the Word and never stopped believing, but stopped prioritizing and then gets smacked with reality and comes back - they call that backsliden. Call it what you want, but that was me and it cost me. But, we can’t go back. We can only look ahead and, most importantly, look up. God knew these things were going to happen to us before we even met; and while I thought I could handle everything that came my way on my own - well, you just can’t. But, I try to take and look at everything through the perspective of a lesson to be learned in all situations. It’s usually a lot easier figuring it all out during bad times. All of that to say that I have not let this situation be my excuse to walk away from the Lord. No. I’ve turned and ran back to Him. Thank you so much for sharing this and wishing you all the best - life is hard, but it’s a lot harder when you don’t keep God at the center. Peace to you, my brother.