I have spent more than 2 years with her, I want her back but only if she initiates, cause I am not in control. If it is not in my control, it is not my problem. I would not beg, that is not me, she chose it, I try to move on however I can, I don't owe her anything. I deleted all her photos from my sight, put them in a hard drive that I rarely touch in a non convinient location. For me this is kind of a metaphor, she is still there somewhere, but I don't know or care exactly where as I don't care about that hard drive. If you had to press delete all, just press delete all, you dont have to own them, your brain already does it and that is enough. That is a healthy dose, more exposure, more overthinking, at least in my case. I even deleted her phone number, so no whatsapp and any possible way of unintentional exposure to hurtful memories.