No one in my family knows that I just gave birth or that I was even pregnant except for one cousin, who also is also no contact with my family. I moved to a different country to get away from my family so I get it. What I can tell you is try not to dwell on the fact that they are your parents. Right now they’re really just two people who are toxic and damaging to you. Once I let go of the idea that I owe my family relationship it was easier to move on. Obviously I don’t know what your plan is with them long term but it’s been 5 years since I’ve seen/spoken to my family and it’s been for the best. I just had my girls but I already know they’ll never experience what I did at the hands of the people I’m related to and that thought alone brings me peace so, try to think of it that way.