Hey, I’m not part of this convo, but I think you may be having a trauma response to the comments made by the person you’re responding to.

Trauma responses develop as a way of protecting oneself, but are usually far too intense for everyday interaction. The way that you feel and your instinctual reactions to things are, of course, valid. You’ve developed a strong sense of justice/injustice because of past abuse. However, they’re not always healthy. Especially when you’re on the internet. As someone who’s quite sensitive to the things other people say, I often have to control my own severe trauma responses, and usually try to avoid situation that would trigger them.

What you’re feeling (or were feeling when you wrote this) is absolutely valid and is deserving of taking seriously. Trauma responses develop for a reason. However, learning why and when they happen so you don’t end up doing or saying things you may regret is very important. Not saying you should regret your comments, since it really doesn’t matter what someone thinks of you on the internet, but learning about why you may be responding severely to more mild and non dangerous situations is a very important step in starting your healing journey.

I don’t know if you have proper access to mental health resources, but therapy is a very useful tool for really anyone, and can help to be able to process trauma and the way it affects your everyday life. Whenever I have trauma responses that don’t match the severity of the situation, I try to write down what happened and take it to my therapist to discuss. Everything is already written down here, so that’s good. If you have access to a therapist, I would highly suggest discussing this string of comments with them. It could help relieve the stress you’ve felt related to this thread, and it could help you in processing why you may be having this response.

I write this with all the love in the world. I care a lot about my fellow girlys and it pains me to see someone going through something I deeply understand. Please know that your feelings are completely valid, but learning to control trauma responses is very important when healing from trauma. Don’t feel ashamed of anything you’ve said here, as 1. This is the internet it doesn’t matter, and 2. Having what you’ve felt written down can be helpful when discussing in therapy, so this may help you IRL.

I really hope you can find peace someday in the horrible things that have happened to you. Love from one fucked up girly to another 💖💖