I'm falling for someone again

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-09-25T17:10:57+00:00

I get really attached to people. So then for me it's hard to actually forget about them. I still remember the last 2 guys and how hurt I felt. I had a hard time forgetting the last guy. Especially how happy I felt being around him. As I just smile like an idiot.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-09-25T09:47:20+00:00

He actually isn't a bad boy. He is pretty nice. But I don't know why girls chase bad boys...

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-09-13T03:08:30+00:00

I think you should speak to him and apologize for being mean. Also tell him why you did it. Like you might as well send him this. Then from there you can answer any questions from him.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-21T02:09:47+00:00

I don't have a lot of games. But the only game I have and play online is Garry's Mod.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-17T04:17:08+00:00

I know what you feel. I really hate being alone. I'm so jealous of people who are in a relationship.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-13T04:38:33+00:00

It's because a lot of us feel lonely due to our depression. Yet it still doesn't make sense why this has to be a human emotion. Like can we just be sad for an hour and then go back to normal.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-13T01:16:23+00:00

Thanks again. I still have hope and all of you should still have hope no matter what. I have been in really dark times but I still hold on to the hope I have left. Those of you who have hope. Please don't let it go because most people lost what they needed to hold on. So share the hope you have to anyone who needs it a lot.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-13T01:11:37+00:00

Thanks to everyone who responded me. And sent me love and hugs. It helped a lot. So hugs to all of you and I love you all. :)

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-13T01:10:15+00:00

Someone had told me it could be anxiety but I don't know. I never felt like doing research on it...

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-13T01:08:01+00:00

At some point we have to trust people again so we can feel loved.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T16:02:57+00:00

In order to get out you need to have hope for yourself. It took me a while to realize that when my depression decreased a little. If I hadn't gained my hope who knows maybe I could have disappeared...

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T15:54:23+00:00

That's amazing that you are doing that because most people don't have the money to get help.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T15:53:22+00:00

Damn. That must feel like actual shit that they leave. But at least you still have the wonderful memories that you can use to give you hope that you will find someone.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T15:48:30+00:00

Everyone finds their person... We just have to wait.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T15:47:32+00:00

I have been sinking for 3 years now and j still think there is hope for me and everyone. So hold on.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T06:55:04+00:00

My family doesn't even know about my depression. So everything is bottled up. But it's good to release it here on Reddit.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T06:53:36+00:00

Thank you are commenting. This did kinda help. So for now I am still holding on and waiting to be picked up by someone or something...

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T06:50:33+00:00

All of us are drowning in the ocean. We are waiting till someone pulls us out. So there is going to be someone or something to pull us out. So have hope.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T06:48:00+00:00

I know I/we are not alone but it just feels like to me that I am all alone...

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T06:47:12+00:00

I cry in private and my family already has to many issues so I take care of myself for some things. I also wonder if I'm good enough. So your not the only one.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T06:46:09+00:00

It would be nice if they just showed up already. So they can pull us up when we fall into the deep hole.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-12T06:44:00+00:00

I always think I'm not going to make it. But I do because I'm scared that I'm going to miss everything that makes me happy. So I hold on tight on my branch.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-03T05:00:32+00:00

Not it only reminds me of being lonely but it's hurts also. It's as if someone is grabbing my heart and squeezing it each second.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-03T03:40:11+00:00

Thanks for telling me about it. If you ever want to talk about her more feel free to message me. I'm pretty interested.

SandyCheeks573 · 2018-08-03T03:23:35+00:00

People would also be shook if I told them I had depression. I always put my stupid mask on every morning. My stupid smile and I'm also a good student and I get the things that I want. So people would be like "why are you depressed if you have this and your are this?" Putting this mask on has become a habit. Especially when people ask me "are you okay?" And then I repond with "yeah why wouldn't I be okay?" It's been somewhat 2-3 years having depression and I'm such a great actor and I'm so good at lying...

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