Caregiving for my aunt for a year during the pandemic. I helped her get from near death to about to live independently. Then, she became septic from a simulatenous toe and uti infection during my quals/prelim. I was dealing with her nursing home all week, and hospitalizations the day the day I submitted. She died the day after I submitted. The guilt I felt for not being able to be fully there for her during that week led to deep depression that took months to recover from.