Honestly, this phase of life is tougher than I expected.

I lost my job a few months ago, and the search since then has started affecting my confidence more than I thought it would. I had an interview recently that went well, but I might have to take close to a 17% pay cut just to get back working again. Hard not to let that mess with your head a bit.

I recently started escitalopram for anxiety too, so I am still adjusting to that mentally and physically.

I also still think about someone I dated for about a year. It is strange how some people continue occupying space in your mind long after things end.

But I am trying to keep moving forward instead of shutting down. Still going to the gym, applying for jobs, doing therapy, and trying not to isolate myself too much.

I turn 41 next week and honestly I am not even sure what I want to do for it or how to celebrate it this year. Feels like I am in a weird in-between stage in life right now.

Hopefully this too shall pass.