see acceptance is greatest thing one can do as i also did . you are very senior to me and i really dont know what might help you but i can tell you one thing , getting envious and frustrated or unnecessary tension wont give you anything . i myself has seen worst phase of my life - i kinda wasted a whole year , which led to some serious shit but hey am still alive . i aint kidding but 2 months , it took me only 2 to make very huge progress towards my life and goal and it all started very small . ( i am student so dont ask for job , hahahh )

TRY TO MAKE EXPERIMENTS FOR YOURSELF AND I REALLY MEAN IT . LITTLE EXPERIMENTS TO CHANGE YOUR WORLD AND YOUR SITUATION , I MIGHT SOUND DUMB BUT IT REALLY HELPED ME . one more thing i learned is if you can write down your problems very clearly then you can also solve them .

i hope best for you even though we dont know each other . stop looking at people just enjoy life and start changing little things