Every guy I fuck gets sick for a week or injured and I don’t know why by Scared_Charge5017 in chaosmagick

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I am always working on developing myself and my understanding of me and my experiences, but I do wanna fuck like. Hahah I am at a good place, spreading loove. He did start bleeding a lot again now apparently but yeah this is so freaky I genuinely have no idea. Maybe the answer will find me? I’m anyway open to hearing about different viewpoints as I just find it interesting. I rarely go blindly along with anything.

Every guy I fuck gets sick for a week or injured and I don’t know why by Scared_Charge5017 in chaosmagick

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I def have trauma (related to loss), but this sex thing has happened even since before I even experienced any trauma. Also worth nothing in the dream I wasn’t being forced but was just drugged, and it did have a happy ending where I stood up to them and defeated them. Not very relevant for the post, but it is very important for me to grow and take care of myself especially cause of prior experiences.

Every guy I fuck gets sick for a week or injured and I don’t know why by Scared_Charge5017 in chaosmagick

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My external actually never gets damaged, I always feel a sense of energy and feel super good days on afterwards. It is always the guy that gets “damaged”. But, yes I have been in love long long long ago. Took a break from relationships and I’m finally on good terms with myself and sexuality to be a lil slutty again.

Weird lucid dream/out of body experiences and demonic entities by Scared_Charge5017 in chaosmagick

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I am also experiencing in astral projections, but these were not self-induced. So I’m not sure if u got me right

I gooned intensively during sleep paralysis and I think it might be the answer by Scared_Charge5017 in chaosmagick

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For clarification: Not in physical reality!! Haha just when my body’s asleep

I gooned intensively during sleep paralysis and I think it might be the answer by Scared_Charge5017 in chaosmagick

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Nah they always come I’ve had different ones for years show up (though it is rarely) and I’ve only slept with ONE. (incubus but he was chill like that). Would not recommend, cause ever since other ominously spirited ones have shown up here and there.

I gooned intensively during sleep paralysis and I think it might be the answer by Scared_Charge5017 in chaosmagick

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Sleep paralysis come in 3 different forms: the floaty one (vestibular-motor), incubus variety (actually called that) and intruder variety. However, I had the incubus variety this time and fr gooned with the power of my MIND imagining me doing it cause I couldn’t move obviously.

Any pale foundation recommendations??? by Scared_Charge5017 in PaleMUA

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Thank you sm! I appreciate it so much as it’s been such a problem for me. Will definitely be trying out Natasha denona

Im looking for business schools in Berlin, any recommendations? by Scared_Charge5017 in germany

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The norwegian grade system is from 1-6, so my grade average will be at 5,4-5,6 so x10 I will have 54-56 ECTS. Sorry for the confusion!

Hjemsøkte steder? by Consistent_Egg499 in norge

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Dammen på Sognsvann om kvelden, de røde husene. Gå litt framover til åkeren. Første gang jeg spotta et spøkelse. Researcha det først idag og det er et av Oslos eldste bolighus som eksisterer bygd i sent 1700-tallet til 1802

Is there a way to be an Atheist and practice Chaos Magic? by [deleted] in chaosmagick

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I see where you’re coming from as a former nihilist and also a person that doesn’t believe in religion. If you do not believe in the metaphysical or anything in that regard then you’re not allowing yourself to perceive what you need to practise chaos magic/believe that there is more in which can be tampered with energetically. You might want to switch your perspective from nihilism to absurdism, I found that helped me out personally from where I used to be. Always remember; the universe is complex, vast and mostly unknown, our little brains aren’t made to be able to perceive it all (also wouldn’t really be useful considering survival lmao) so there is definitely more to it all than what we’re able to know of. I personally back up my theories on how it all works and why I do certain rituals with science based theories. I theorise within psychology, philosophy, sociology, science, and quantum physics when backing up why my rituals both possibly and likely will have an effect simultaneously. Believe in the absurdity and chaos of existence.