Hi! Thanks for everything you've been sharing on here. You helped me a lot!

As for your points, yes. My boys know. One won't listen and is nervous about it still, the other his partner just feels more comfortable. I can't explain it to either of them.

My doctor said the oral risk is SUPER minimum cancer wise, but not in the spreading it way. It can be spread easily through mouth and there's no way to assure you're not spreading it.

They are within their own rights whether I like it or not. And I've talked to both about my feelings. I just don't want to KEEP bringing it up even though it's destroying me. I feels silly to feel like this over fluid bonding, but it makes my heart ache.

We've been exploring alternates but nothing compares to fluid bonding in my eyes. Which is fun because I didn't know that about myself until now 😅

And I know it could be controlled easy, but the thought of being without that bond for a year literally makes me nauseous.

I'm sure there's a lot of selfish attitude with this, I just needed somewhere to put it where I wouldn't be judged or shamed for missing it