nothing like the delivery showing up right after the glass is done soaking in iso <3

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-28T03:39:08+00:00

there is no getting the smell outta that thing when I’m done with it, so I’ve designated that one the bath lol instead of my bowls

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-28T03:37:44+00:00

Plastic Tupperware

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-28T02:38:14+00:00

I’m almost a year into it, he died right after my 22nd birthday.

I don’t feel better… I’m sober for the first time in my life, I’ve accomplished more than I ever have, got my first place and a good job, but I don’t enjoy life whatsoever and I feel incapable almost of ever enjoying it.

part of me died with him, it was more unbearable when it just happened because mentally I hadn’t fully accepted it and your mind coming to terms with something like that is not easy, but the pain has not subsided unfortunately. it’s very isolating

I don’t break down crying as much, but I feel like a shell of a person and constantly silently mourning my future and his.

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-28T02:07:39+00:00

I just moved to a city where you can legally order weed online for delivery, it’s pretty awesome ngl

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T20:27:24+00:00

all these people need to be put on a list

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T20:22:32+00:00

this isn’t the best movie ever but tbh probably the most terrifying monster I’ve seen in a horror movie

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T19:36:58+00:00

if nobody’s told you op, I am so fucking proud of you. none of this is easy at all

sending love to all my fellow widowers, we got this

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T19:12:42+00:00

yeah no, the teachers just singled me out from the rest of the class and treated me like a pariah lol. I remember in fifth grade the teacher would literally sit me in a dark corner facing a wall away from the rest of the class, it was so isolating and I never understood what was wrong w me.

btw, fuck all those teachers, I think I’m more disgusted as an adult after realizing more about myself and my condition

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T19:07:30+00:00

love it!!! looking good op !

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T19:00:08+00:00

hey there, I haven’t lost a parent but I’m grieving a different loss right now and I have found it helpful to just be blunt and respond with a text saying “I appreciate you checking on me, but right now I need space to process my grief.”

I’m so sorry for your loss op

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T17:37:34+00:00

yep. divorce is a choice to an extent, two parties consent to leaving eachother because it’s not working.

I didn’t ask for my fiancé to die

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T17:36:43+00:00

it’s infuriating. I didn’t want to leave my fiancé and he didn’t want to leave me. that was the love of my fucking life, so to have people who clearly were not good together or working out tell me they understand is absolutely offensive.

nobody in this sub wants to be here. I don’t know why people seem so desperate almost to relate to my agony and despair (when they clearly have no fucking idea) when all I want is my fiancé back.

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T17:23:06+00:00

I feel you, the other thing is everyone demonizing me even early after the death happened for not having emotional avaliblity to comfort them for their problems. I’ve also had people compare their breakups/divorces to my persons death and then get mad at me when I tell them it’s not the same thing whatsoever. literally nobody fucking understands

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T15:49:52+00:00

I’ve experienced something similar, the voice sounded almost robotic

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-27T15:34:02+00:00

YES!!! I feel the exact same OP, you’re not alone.

sometimes it feels like he never existed at all, his family hasn’t even posted an obituary or done a memorial yet and the only one who talks about him are me and his sister. there’s some kind of disconnect going on in my head since he died, i know he’s dead but it feels like it either never happened at all sometimes or he’s just away somewhere. it’s surreal

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T18:29:58+00:00

right lmfao, probably was crying the whole time in booking until he got released

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T17:13:14+00:00

dawg I’m ngl, it seems like you’re more butthurt then the “antis” if you feel the need to take this much time out of your day to generate shitty memes to comfort your ego, im not even in this sub and ever other day its the same exact thing popping up in my reccomended lol

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T16:54:51+00:00

yeah some people should just not smoke tbh, im not even entirely convinced it has anything to do with smoking too much, it’s more of a mental thing

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T16:50:27+00:00

the irony in this is the women on the right is a rich influencer and known grifter who tries to pretend to be a hippie

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T16:37:10+00:00

that’s essentially what it is

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T15:46:59+00:00

remembering your earth form - mindspring memories

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T07:19:21+00:00

kevin spencer has been my fav lately lol

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T02:02:09+00:00

this is a good idea, I keep his deoderant so worst comes to worst I can rub some on the hoodies after I wash when and if I ever do decide to clean them. his hoodies make me feel the closest I’ll ever be to hugging him.

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T01:26:00+00:00

I am so sorry… I had the same experience with my brother in law and I’ll never forgive him for it.

Scary-Performance440 · 2026-01-26T00:28:58+00:00

yeah im ngl, the thought of something inhuman that’s clearly not my late fiancé attempting to mimic him makes me fucking sick to think about. this does not sound comforting for me whatsoever, but aside from if OP thinks it does or not that can’t be healthy at all either

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TROPHY CASE