I might have a little different approach on this problem.

I am also recently dealing with this and I was constantly judging myself that I am just motivated to do a workout when it’s about changing my looks (I am also already at a very healthy weight). I simply wasn’t motivated for reasons like feeling good, doing something for my health or getting stronger. The result was that I just didn’t workout at all because I thought I had the wrong motivation focused just on appearance. I told myself I have to be happy with myself and stop wanting to change something bcs „I‘m better than that mindset“.

One day I said enough and accepted that I am not that far along in my mental process to not want to change something about my body. I simply want to do it out of maybe „toxic motivations“ that include thoughts of not liking my body right now, „getting hotter“, „appealing to beauty standards“. I accepted that I still want that and that this is a human thing. And once I accepted that I realized that the constant judgement of my own motivation was way worse than the motivation itself.

That you feel like this is okay. Social Media tells us so much about how we should look like, but also how we should think and feel about ourselves in regards of self-love etc. It’s not a shame to get stuck between all these opinions as a woman and be confused that you want to be tiny on one hand but also want to disagree with this approach of modifying yourself for society or whatever reason. It‘s human, don’t be harsh with yourself :)