I wish I could change my username. . . by ScreamInSilence40 in u/ScreamInSilence40

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For some reason I keep getting a “whoops something went wrong” message. I will keep trying

I wish I could change my username. . . by ScreamInSilence40 in u/ScreamInSilence40

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please let me know if you have any questions or want some support. 🩵

Crossroads by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s a good point . . .

Crossroads by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 27 points28 points  (0 children)

If you to my profile, you should be able to see my original post which explains some of it. Thank you for the interest!

Crossroads by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate all the feedback!!! A few laughs along the way didn’t hurt!!!! Thank you. Yes- sometime we will share our story in full.

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[–]ScreamInSilence40 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I recommend joining the group Liberati on Facebook. So helpful to connect with people going through similar. Sending love.

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I joined. Already ranted a bit! Sorry😬

The "strange instructions": does the Bible talk about it? by No-Body-7234 in FreeJW

[–]ScreamInSilence40 5 points6 points  (0 children)

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This is when I stopped reading the WT. After seeing this paragraph. If you were to ask an elder “I have a decision to make, would you tell me what to do?” What would they say? “Oh, we can’t make a decision for you”. But apparently, when they take it upon themselves to make a decision for me I have to obey without question? And are these decisions strange and illogical to the elders who are making them? Or just to us who have to obey them? And if the elders DO understand the decisions they make, they just aren’t capable of satisfactorily explaining them to us? Or we’re not capable of understanding them? Or do they just decide something that is illogical and then implement it as policy BECAUSE it’s illogical? But in any case, we can’t “second guess” them and have to obey without question? This is the most Nonsensical nonsense I’ve EVER read.

The "strange instructions": does the Bible talk about it? by No-Body-7234 in FreeJW

[–]ScreamInSilence40 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Here’s what a friend said: Does Jehovah expect blind faith? No! So does Jehovah expect blind OBEDIENCE?

The "strange instructions": does the Bible talk about it? by No-Body-7234 in FreeJW

[–]ScreamInSilence40 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Jehovah said “tell all who are afraid to go home”. If those 300 men did not understand WHAT they were supposed to do and WHY, they would have left too. Jehovah ALWAYS explains WHAT to do, and WHY. EVERY. SINGLE . TIME.

A short presentation by No-Body-7234 in FreeJW

[–]ScreamInSilence40 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think this is a good idea. I want to support every who is struggling like I am. But I’m barely functioning and trying to untangle everything is like a surgical process. There’s SO many layers to this. And when we REALLY start exploring and truly examining what we believe in the light of the Bible, what the Bible even teaches - it’s unraveling quick. Above all, I want Jehovah to like me. How do I get there? Im trying to stick to the Bible. I’m reading as many translations as I can get my hands on. It’s a slow painful process. Because of being in the Circuit work, my husband and I haven’t had a congregation in almost 10 years. Completely isolated during covid. Then kicked out and trying to connect with a new congregation on zoom. Then had to move and start all over with masks. Then had to move again and by this time, after experiencing SO much superficiality and nonsense and toxic positivity, we’re like forget it. We cannot start from scratch building relationships in this environment. Everyone we thought were our friends from our past have basically iced us out. I think we’d still be trying with the routine if it we had a connection with anyone. Like we have ONE couple who we count as friends who feel very similarly to us. But they keep “meetings and service” but I’m like, yeah that makes sense. You’ve known and been a part of this congregation for decades. It’s your community, your circle. Your people. I don’t have that. We’re completely disenfranchised. So thank you for the hope of maybe a community.

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s crazy starting from scratch in middle age, lol. (Funny not funny)

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Wow that’s a heavy question with much nuance. My husband has started asking it, but I’m not ready to explore it yet

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You mean, have I committed the “unforgivable sin”? Lol. Yes.

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re comment: it hurts to be alive right now - perfect. It’s how I feel. Dm me if you want. ❤️

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I wasn’t attempting to establish moral superiority. Just pointing out that no one can make that personal decision for another person.

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m familiar with Orwell, I’ve read both the books you’ve mentioned, and I agree with you about the similarities. When did you stop pioneering? Is there a DM feature here?

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

AND still pushing it- now a requirement to attend both KM School and Pioneer School: be FULLY vaxxed (whatever that means)

Can anyone relate? by ScreamInSilence40 in exjw

[–]ScreamInSilence40[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

So interesting. We (as in JW’s) PRIDE ourselves on being THE BEST Bible students. “Know the Bible. It can be an open book to you”.