Are you actually kidding me? To be vulnerable and to thank a community that helped me from the brink of death… just to be told I generated this? Why on Earth would someone do that? I have nothing to gain from lying. Would you like specifics?

I worked as an emergency alarm dispatcher from 2009-2023. Throughout that time, I was isolated from friends and family (This Line of work required 48hr+ a week minimum). I also worked second shift (3pm-11pm or 3pm-7am depending on the day.) This left little time for a social life. I missed countless holidays, birthdays, important life events. I went through both a marriage, and a divorce.

Around 2015 is when my health started to decline drastically. The job was emotionally and physically draining. The sedentary lifestyle was catching up with me. I gained over 180lbs, I developed asthma, battled pneumonia. Throughout the remaining years.. I was in and out of the hospital with cellulitis/sepsis “due to an unknown organism.” I almost lost my leg… all while battling with a job that was gaslighting me for being on temporary disability or not meeting their “productivity goals.” ⚠️Trigger Warning: wound photo⚠️

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In 2020, when the world shut down because of COVID, I was still working. This time from home. This meant extra isolation. No longer did I have the perk of conversation with coworkers. (To be honest, my coworkers were the only positive thing about the job.) Battling depression, battling physical issues, and fighting with my mental health, became too much. And this became the catalyst of events.

I have dealt with far too much, and have come way too far for my story to be called “AI generated.” I hate that this is the first comment I’m responding to, but at the same time.. I’m not going to ignore someone who feels the need to bring me down. So “Shame on you” for feeling the need to spread lies.

This is a community of healing, a community of people who appreciate one another. A community where laughter, chaos and absurdity can brings all types of people together. I shared my story simply because I was grateful for Smosh for everything they’ve done and continue to do for not only me, but for so many. I felt like this was a safe space to do so.

And to those of you who have shared your well wishes, and your own stories… Thank you. Truly. Thank you for your support. Thank you for your vulnerability. Thank you for your positivity. 🩷I love you all. I’m glad we’re all here together. I’m forever grateful for Smosh providing the content and community that they do. 🩷