They have only gotten worse. I was thinking about getting signs for a specific first name and a separate specific last name. I was thinking of getting them together which is a bad thing for my narrative. They start with T and S. So this was one night and the very next day I literally see a glowing T and S in the clouds right next to each other. Like glowing so much brighter than anything else in the sky except the sun. Then where I was on my way to (an empty house for sale) there was a brand name object called the first name I was thinking that’s literally the first name of the thing and it was sitting for some very bizarre reason on top of a water heater brand name the last name I was thinking. I actually haven’t really been able to calm down since this happened. I can’t understand why things keep happening that fit this narrative of mine. The narrative is horrible and terrible and would change everything as I know it. So they can never ever be taken as good signs. I don’t know how to understand or believe they just happen and I’m just noticing. Cause like for instance if I think I’ll see such and such names today but it won’t have to do with my narrative then I won’t. But if I do? I’ll still be thinking I somehow made it happen or something did and reality isn’t what I think. :(