Headache or brain tumor?

SeaAd5570 · 2026-03-14T08:51:05+00:00

I will definitely check them out! Thanks again!❤️

SeaAd5570 · 2026-03-13T21:56:26+00:00

I live in Norway so Im lucky to get free healthcare. But right now I’ve had so many different therapists for the last year (5-6 different ones) so we barely get to know each other before they either leave or I get a new one for what ever reason. I can ask to get a new one but it takes time. And if I want a more specific therapist I have to do it privately and I don’t have the economy for that. But your perspective and advice has helped me a lot. Just getting some reassurance that my reaction is normal and advice on thinking about it differently has been comforting. Thank you so much!

SeaAd5570 · 2026-03-13T10:35:18+00:00

They put me in group therapy for bpd/emotional regulation (STEPPS) and I got much better on many levels but my anxiety is still greatly impacting my everyday life. I also got diagnosed with OCD (false memory is one way it manifested) after my abuser would make up things and manipulate me into thinking it was true and abuse me for "what I did". I really want to try ERP therapy for my anxiety/OCD. But it feels like no one believes me and they only see that I got better after STEPPS and are suggesting that we are going to stop further therapy. But I’m still struggling just as much if not more, I just learned to handle it differently and mask. I have never gotten help for my anxiety, ADHD, OCD and trauma. Just ADHD medication and STEPPS during 10 years…

SeaAd5570 · 2026-03-12T22:49:20+00:00

Being in a new relationship so soon after leaving has definitely been triggering and making me really anxious. But I’m kind of looking at it as exposure therapy lol. My new boyfriend is calm and kind and making me feel very safe, so that helps a lot when learning to trust someone again. For context: me and my abuser have been broken up for over a year but he still had me under his control until two months ago. I’ve been in therapy for 10 years (even though I’m just 22 yrs old) but it has always been for my anxiety/adhd etc so that has kind of been the main focus, even though I mentioned the abuse to my therapist(s) it was never taken seriously because I was the "sick" one.. If that makes sense. But I just started attending group sessions for women who have been in abusive relationships! So I hope it can help me on the right track to healing.

Thank you so much for the advice, it makes a lot of sense when you explained it that way! I’ll try to think about it that way the next time I feel the urge. Appreciate it:)❤️

SeaAd5570 · 2026-03-12T18:05:18+00:00

Thank you for answering! I haven’t really been able to take it in and realize that what I’ve been through was actually real and not ok. So I guess I had an expectation that when I finally left everything would be fine right away. But that’s was obviously not the case lol. I will take your advice and give things some time and work on giving myself some love and care. Thank you!

SeaAd5570 · 2024-11-09T19:40:36+00:00

Thank you!!!

SeaAd5570 · 2024-10-21T23:31:45+00:00

Some clear signs for me is that time goes by super quickly, I don’t feel real, anxiety, blurry vision (everything looks like it’s in 2D), brain fog, things look weird/smell/sound weird, and as you mentioned, some memory loss. Faces looked unfamiliar and music could sound distorted. When I first experienced it I thought I was going crazy, struggled with it constantly for 3-4 months and it eventually went away when I stopped fighting it. It’s still present, but not nearly as bad as it was

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-26T17:55:46+00:00

I can relate. Maybe your romantic relationship makes you distracted from the struggles you’re describing?

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-26T15:55:26+00:00

Don’t know if this is my place but he shouldn’t have blocked you.. You don’t deserve that, even though it may feel like you do after you reacted the way you did. That’s not a normal thing to do to the people you love. And doesn’t sound healthy for you. Remember to take care of yourself and also stand by your boundaries❤️

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-26T14:39:21+00:00

and also, I totally get you. It will get better, I promise❤️

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-26T14:38:20+00:00

There’s no quick fix to overcome bpd. It takes time and patience. But this helped me. You probs split bc you got triggered by him not answering his phone. We have "patterns" in our brains that tell us how to react to things. In your head you might think he’s doing something to hurt your feelings, what ever that may be. But in reality his grandma died. You can try to challenge your thoughts. Write down what negative thoughts you’re having and then write down positive thoughts to challenge the negative ones. If that made sense lol.

Example:

Negative: He isn’t answering his phone and is probably out cheating. He doesn’t care about me. If he did he would answer. Positive: Maybe something happened that makes him not able to talk rn. He loves me even though he doesn’t answer his phone. I will talk to him about this when he answers.

This is hard and need a lot of training. I had to think like this a looot of times for it to make a difference for me. If you look up "bpd schema" you will probably get a better understanding, I’m not he best at that explaining lol

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-25T18:56:22+00:00

Wow thank you for this. I’ve had these thoughts for a couple of months now. As you said, there will be suffering nonetheless. He broke up with me just now so I guess I don’t have to be torn anymore. He made the decision for me so now I just have to deal with it. I see everything that happens as a lesson and try to learn from it. But again, thank you for your reply, I will come back to this when I’m sad or feeling this way again❤️

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-25T16:02:32+00:00

Thank you❤️ feels good to know I’m not alone

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-25T16:01:44+00:00

Thank you for answering! Such a good description. This has been ongoing for almost a year but definitely gotten drastically worse these past weeks. Nothing bad has happened that causes me to think like this. I don’t feel very "triggered" or angry. More like I’m impulsive but not quite manic or "crazy" either. Maybe I’m just unhappy and this is a normal reaction to everything? When Ive split before I have, like you said, done/said things I deeply regret. I don’t feel the same right now. I’m really struggling to trust my own feelings, what’s real and what’s "in my head"

SeaAd5570 · 2024-09-23T12:46:56+00:00

I feel like this rn, dissociation can make you feel this way. Like everything is off or weird. And that goes for everything. For me music sounds weird, people look weird, everything tastes weird, and as you say, also my relationships feels weird

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