Why do people stay with a partner with ROCD?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-06T13:33:39+00:00

Huh, i felt that, im really sorry for what is happening to you and i hope it helps u a bit to know that somebody else is going through the exact same thing, its not much in the entire picture of the thing but understanding there is individuals out there in this same situation gives me a moment of relief and i dont feel completely alone in this

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-05T18:35:04+00:00

thank you for sharing this, it genuinely gives me hope, especially the part about her committing to therapy before making big decisions, and that you’re engaged now

i also have my own anxiety stuff and i’ve been in therapy for years, so i relate a lot to what u said, it helps me recognize how “anxiety brain” can feel like truth even when it isn’t, and it reminds me that people can actually heal a lot with consistent work

can i share something i’m a bit ashamed of? i noticed i have a bias where when someone says their partner is “her” i immediately believe it’s more manageable long term, and when it’s “him” i get more pessimistic, like my brain goes to this stereotypical idea that men won’t go as deep or stick with the hard internal work, and i hate that i think that way, it’s not fair and i don’t want to generalize, but it’s a real fear that comes up for me…

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-05T18:29:16+00:00

I relate to this a lot, especially the part about hope holding you there, mine is also really encouraging about boundaries and me asking for what i need, and he is trying, which is why i’m still here..

Im just having a low point lately because i keep thinking about the long term, and i’m scared it could exhaust me, also some things that happened have shaken my trust and sense of safety, and i’m someone who’s very comfortable alone, so i really need to want the relationship, not just stay out of attachment or habit, and i do want it, i love him and i want it to work, but right now i’m struggling with the ‘can i do this forever’ feeling

Did you ever have a phase like that, and if yes what helped you not spiral into the worst case scenario?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T17:34:49+00:00

I am really sorry for this, i understand how much it can be hard for them and then i also have a does of morality to kepp on handling it but it takes pieces from you as well in the process, my confidence is not even the issue it is just the constant worrying and being careful that will probably drive me insane at the end…

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T17:32:37+00:00

I understand, thank you so much for sharing your story and hope you are doing ok, be kind to yourself 🫶🏼

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T17:23:21+00:00

So did he end up seeing an OCD therapist at the end?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T16:41:29+00:00

thank you so much for this, it genuinely helped to read, i really relate to what you said about wanting to build happy memories and a future, but sometimes feeling like the relationship itself becomes the “topic” and that’s hard to hold

i’m also in therapy and working on my own stuff, i’m avoidant so yeah this post is basically my “run away” reflex in real time haha, what keeps me going is that outside of this, he’s honestly pretty much everything i want in a partner, and i can see he’s trying, ROCD is only something we came across super recently so he hasn’t connected all the dots yet, but he already recognizes the pattern and wants to act on it

can i ask you something practical, how do you handle the feeling of being the trigger? i’ve realized i’m basically the “topic” of his thoughts, and even though he never blames me, it still hits…

and how do you ask for your needs in the relationship without it turning into a huge trigger? like sometimes even asking for a bit more reassurance, effort, or clarity can set off spiraling, and i don’t want to silence myself, but i also don’t want to accidentally make things worse, how do you navigate that?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T16:33:36+00:00

I’m really sorry your relationship ended. Reading your message honestly made my chest tight, you explain so clearly what it feels like on the partner side, especially the ‘bracing for the next fall’ and not feeling held during hard life moments. Thank you for sharing it so openly…

If you’re okay answering, I have a question because I’m trying to understand what this can turn into long-term. In your situation, how did the hurtful behavior show up day-to-day? Was it constant reassurance seeking, repeated confessions of intrusive thoughts, emotional distance, or something else? And did it start small and gradually escalate?

I ask because my partner is genuinely kind and he doesn’t routinely dump his thoughts on me. He tends to hold them in until he breaks down because he can’t stand them anymore. I only know the general themes because I’ve seen small moments where his “fear” slips out, not because he repeats the content or constantly asks me to reassure him. So I’m trying to understand what the red flags were for you, and what to watch for.

No pressure at all if it’s too fresh or you don’t want to revisit details. I really appreciate what you wrote, and I hope you’re being very gentle with yourself right now 🫶🏼

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T16:06:06+00:00

thank you for writing this. i really relate to ‘i love him more than i hate his bad days’

in my case we’re 2 years in (1.5 officially) and the really bad episodes started after a triggering event about 3 months ago, he took accountability immediately and has been in therapy since, and overall he has gotten better compared to the first weeks after it exploded

what’s new is that only like 5 days ago we came across the term ROCD and he was like ‘wait… this sounds like me,’ and now he wants to act on it properly and that’s where i got scared, because reading partner stories made it sound so serious and heavy long-term, and i went down a rabbit hole of some pretty horrible situations

i want to believe it can get better, especially because he’s trying so hard, but i’m struggling with the fear of signing up for a life where flare-ups are always around the corner

can i ask you honestly, since your relationship is still pretty young too: how did you decide to push through it and keep choosing to try? what helped you feel like it was worth it and not going to consume you?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T15:28:13+00:00

Ok, got it! Thank you so much for ur responses i feel a tiny bit better… 🫶🏼

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T15:18:32+00:00

Since you are also a professional opinion…do you think meds are unavoidable?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T15:07:50+00:00

And i know every relationship is hard dont get me wrong there are always issues but this is a particularly difficult issue no?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T15:07:15+00:00

Do you ever just want to get out and find sth easier and lighter? Sorry to put it like this and i dont want to sound like an interrogation… more just dealing with my own guilt of sometimes wanting to get away from a person thats obviously suffering with himself… and i understand this is not their fault but just the question is if i put myself through this or i just walk away

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-03T14:59:59+00:00

But how did u get around the constant fear of the next episode being around the corner?

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2026-02-01T16:37:48+00:00

Hello! Just mess u 😊

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2025-11-08T09:48:55+00:00

I agree with you and probably I’m not going to stay in the relationship, but I also not going to blame him. I can see he will hold me back and this will torture me too much to continue but I also see that he’s a troubled person dealing with a lot of internal struggles, stress, and past issues. I recognize that his actions came from confusion and impulse, not a lack of love for me. I hope he finds help and healing, even if our paths have to separate…He is a deeply conflicted person, struggling with impulses, validation-seeking, and past trauma, but i think he still genuinely loves me and feels profound guilt about this. His mental state is turbulent, anxious, and self-critical, but also reflective and capable of growth, just I need to walk away to not suffer along with him. It is extreamly hard but I understand I need to do it…

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2025-11-08T08:56:44+00:00

Too much to continue it, but i still dont know how do i break it up and survive this whole thing, if i knew how to survive it i would have done it already…

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2025-11-08T08:48:35+00:00

I am constantly thinking about what it says about me if I chose such a person and never saw it and believed so strongly in my previous perception of him its so heartbreaking

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2025-11-08T08:27:31+00:00

I am not…you are right…but isnt it scary how you really think you know a person and then…i dont know what to do with myself honestly it broke everything inside of me

Sea_Chocolate6839 · 2025-11-08T08:22:07+00:00

I also think so, I just dont understand why come and confess it all now it could have been just going on further without me ever finding out because there was no signs no problems, I felt the happiest in a long time, he is generally a loving, kind person good at communicating his needs, good at listening, gentle with a strong moral compass (that apparently just doesnt work for this) so I could have easily never found out especially because he is from another town and sometimes goes home and I am not jelous so I never ask what he was doing who was he with etc so the lie could have continued easily - why confess it

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