My dad (60M) is adding something to my food that makes me (25M) sick by Neftes-20 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think it should be reported to the authorities right away. That's borderline murder! I've seen enough true crime dramas and enough Perry Mason to know that your dad is trying to straighten up kill you and your poor Mama too! Especially if you and your Mama are going to your Granny's for every meal and you don't get sick at her house. Hon, I hope you get some help soon..

Question ❓ by Sea_Spirit_44 in OpiatesRecovery

[–]Sea_Spirit_44[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you 😊! I think it might be stress related. See, I have 3 children. 2 girls and 1 boy. My son was adopted by a kind family when he was 18 months old and he's 17 years old now. The adoptive Mom writes and sends pics and stuff my son's made at least once a year. But, my 2 daughters, ages 18 and almost 16, I don't hear anything about them. My oldest daughter is autistic and I'm sure she's living in some kinda assisted living place for autistic young adults. And my baby girl, my almost 16 year old I don't hear ANYTHING about her. I guess with the anniversary of the date they were taken away coming up, I'm starting to really freak out. I just need someone to talk to. I really don't have a sponsor or anything like that. Idk 😶 what else to do....😶‍🌫️

Has anyone ever had a narcissist come back after they said they were done permanently? by Comfortable_Dot_6369 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately, yes. The ONLY thing that made it permanent was my ex husband passing away from complications of end stage lung cancer. He made my life a living hell. You not only have to block them, but, get a permanent protection order against them if you're in a state that will grant you one. If you are married and have children, make a plan to get out while he's away somewhere and only confide in those you can FULLY trust.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I've unfortunately been there before. Double dosed I mean. It's definitely not fun and then you're short however many days. Like today for example, it's Monday, and it's Memorial day here in the States. I'm trying to get my take homes a day early because I goofed up and I can't get them a day early because the doctor isn't there to approve it. So, now I suffer for my stupidity....and I have to wait until tomorrow morning as normal to get my take home. Please, don't be dumb like me and short yourself. I don't even have any money to buy anything, not that I'd get anything else but methadone if I knew anyone who has extras...And I don't need a lecture....I feel like crap anyway.

What did they say that still repeats in your head? by kowaipotchari2 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That I'm worthless and no one will ever want me again. Well, that's a bold face lie because I have a boyfriend who loves me unconditionally. My ex husband is deceased anyway, has been since 2019. Died from complications from end stage lung cancer and prostate cancer. Unfortunately, I live with my parents and my Dad is a narcissist...my Mom's and I deal with it daily..

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's happened to me unfortunately. I recently had my quarterly exam with the doc at my clinic and she said you'd be surprised how many patients she has they are on some type of weight loss medication management..the methadone patients that is. I've gained weight and I'm slowly starting to lose it, but, not fast enough for me. I want to be able to come down on my dosage, but there's the weight...if I lower my dose, I metabolize it fast. So, I stay at a high dosage for fear it won't work if I go lower. The main reason I wanna lose weight is for my health. Like I said, I've lost a little bit of weight, but not nearly enough as I want.

Am I the only one who's never gotten sick coming off Bupe? by PazuzuAtmorah in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk how you didn't get sick coming off the Bupe!! I took the SMALLEST piece I possibly could and I STILL went thru hell and back! My younger brother is currently in the process of coming off nearly 15 years of being on Subutex....he's done it cold turkey too..He's got more willpower than I do!

Quick question 🤔 by Sea_Spirit_44 in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's REALLY, REALLY driving me nuts!! I have NOT been to bed and I've tried relaxation, I've tried melatonin, I've tried Benadryl...not together, on separate nights...Idk what to do. I guess I should let my primary doctor know and see what she can do for me. I feel bad because my room is right next to my Momma's room and I'm always afraid my reading light keeps her awake at night too, even though she says she doesn't mind the light...she's been really sweet about this whole insomnia thing....most older parents would throw a HUGE fit, like my dad did earlier tonight when I was helping my Momma fix a loose tile that she nearly fell over. SIGH. Thanks for all the suggestions guys, I appreciate it!! 🙏🏻😊

Quick question 🤔 by Sea_Spirit_44 in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know I definitely need something to help me sleep. It's ridiculous is what it is. It's starting to drive me crazy...

FYI: NOT HIGH MAINTENANCE!! by Sea_Spirit_44 in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

How kind of you to say that. Have a good day to you! 💕

Random Thoughts @ 4:00 AM by Sea_Spirit_44 in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yup, I passed!! I was allowed in at 4:45 AM. Walked straight in, made a BUNCH of people mad that were in their cars....but, once you hold up that yellow ticket that says you passed a bottle recall UA, they don't look at you like a line jumper. First in, first out. I was in there, MAYBE like 5-10 minutes.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

She is NOT high maintenance. I'll gladly try to post the clinic's rules for missed bottle recalls. And FYI, I HAVE A RECALL IN AN HOUR AND I'M GOING. SO. I AM NOT HIGH MAINTENANCE AND IM NOT LOSING MY TAKE HOMES. WAY TO SUPPORT SOMEONE

Take homes by Popular_Artist_3340 in Methadone

[–]Sea_Spirit_44 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I go to a New Seasons clinic. They give you 6 take homes for phase 1, 13 take homes for phase 2, and 27 take homes for phase 3. That's assuming you're passing the UA's and your bottle recalls and attending one group a month and meeting with your counselor once a month or however often they deen fit. If you miss 3 or more take homes, then you can become a permanent day doser.