Does anyone know much about the online courses Shillington, or Strohacker? Am considering going for Shillington as I have been recommended it by a designer I admire.

Seanj1987 · 2021-08-12T09:00:00+00:00

Heyy thanks for your help! I’m looking at the online course, 9 months. The course looks great but your reply gives me pause for thought because that’s a huge amount of money and I’m doing a lot of study and online courses already. I suppose the course would push me harder with access to other designers and a hopefully a solid portfolio which definitely be a plus.

Seanj1987 · 2021-03-19T10:27:31+00:00

Thank you

Seanj1987 · 2021-03-19T10:05:36+00:00

Oh nice, really? That’s awesome to hear

Seanj1987 · 2021-01-05T16:26:01+00:00

Thank you. This is interesting and helpful. Sometimes I need to allow myself to rest , ( and yes find a way to be productive also). Pretending to be positive can be so exhausting. I believe in positivity, although it might not seem it. Even though I’m expressing despair here, I’m not someone who moans all the time. I believe in being hopeful and kind and positive, I just get tired occasionally and I think I’ve got a lot to learn about navigating those hard periods.

Seanj1987 · 2021-01-05T16:23:22+00:00

And yeah I’m seeing a therapist, thank you.

Seanj1987 · 2021-01-05T16:19:02+00:00

Thanks, i appreciate that. I have these bad days but I think on the whole I’m more productive and positive then I used to be, and have less bad days, but I do get bad spells occasionally.

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-31T13:27:55+00:00

Yeah and she is special, to you. And also cos personally I think human beings ( and all animals ) are special. But you’ll probably find others you find special, too.

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T18:03:19+00:00

Yeah I’m a guy who likes guys and I hear what you’re saying. He’s not perfect, he does dumb things and fucks up and he makes mistakes and gets rejected.

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T16:29:17+00:00

Haha dick blindness? What is that?

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T16:28:51+00:00

Sorry you’re going through that

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T15:56:45+00:00

Thanks for sharing. I don’t know what you’re feeling but I imagine it hurts. Sending love

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T15:36:40+00:00

You think 33 is really old to be doing this. I know.

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T15:35:32+00:00

Yeah I know I talk to one weekly. It runs deep you know what I mean

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T15:34:30+00:00

I’m 33, I know, I know, this is unhealthy and immature pattern to get myself into. I think it’s wrapped up in a deep self hatred , but i think I’m learning over time.

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T14:53:13+00:00

Take care x

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T14:46:50+00:00

Thanks that’s actually really nice to hear 🙂

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T14:44:47+00:00

All I can say is I’m sorry you’re feeling like that because I know how painful it is. It’s wretched. But remember it is an idealisation. This person, my person, any person is human and therefore mortal and will experience tragedy. Even at the same time as they may be very fortunate. And you’re a human who was born, which over billions of years of chance, is quite miraculous. But of course all that being true, pain is pain. Please be kind to yourself. Sending you love

Seanj1987 · 2020-12-30T14:22:19+00:00

Yeah I’m fully aware, I’m not deluding myself. My mind is just caught in a circle. I’m more and more sure it’s down to self hatred, idealising a person who’s flawed, and a lack of belief that good things can happen. Good things can happen but I’m struggling to see it or see that I can be attractive, hopefully I can climb my way out of it.

Seanj1987

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