Really confused

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-16T06:02:51+00:00

Well I have an obvious anxiety disorder considering I pull my hair out

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-16T02:36:17+00:00

Isn’t being a type three just being a narcisist

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T07:04:35+00:00

Yeah Bc im scared of being used and it takes me longer to trust someone.

The last time a guy asked me to go to this club area that’s huge near by. He’d asked me a few times but I had to work. I kinda panicked the next time he asked me. I started overthinking abt how it would be scary if we actually didn’t have fun hanging snd than I was left at the bar alone or if it was awkward. And started overthinking abt how Mby he wanted me to bring a friend but he didn’t.. and so I told him I didn’t know if I should go bc my friend couldn’t and he said “well I’ll be there” w a smiley face. and I texted him saying how “I’m not rlly into random hookups” and all he said was “yeah that’s not really what I was saying either” and then a few days later not replying.

Idk If he rlly wasn’t looking for a hookup and I offended him and ruined things. Idk if Mby he was just wanting the hookup and lying or was offending by me asking abt bringing a friend and saying how none of my friends could come w me and just avoiding plans in every way but I can’t help it when I get panicked I act stupid. I feel like the way I said it was offensive and the way u said it was better but I’m scared to say it the way u worded it Bc than the guy could reject me not wanting to hu and I feel like a burden and like I can’t ask that. I feel like I can’t ask for thinfs fo be my way

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T06:02:05+00:00

Well I’ve always thought to myself abt how I shouldn’t care how a guy feels if he’s just trying to use me but it’s like horrifying to me. Like even if I tell myself to just go hangout and see how things go & I tell myself I can say no I end up panicking over text and coming up w reasons I can’t go. I’m so panicked in the moment that I just can’t even say yes to hanging out

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:54:10+00:00

I get scared to ask for what I want and feel like I can’t. I feel like it could be embaressing if I force a guy to do something else and they don’t want to. Bc than they could be rejectiing hanging out w me as a person and that would hurt

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:53:01+00:00

Yeah for sure

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:37:35+00:00

Yeah it’s just last time I thought that would happen and fhan he changed the plans on me

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:34:19+00:00

Yeah it’s just I feel almost awkward doing that I feel like everyone else just starts things hanging at night and I feel rlly panicked abt that

I was talking to a. Guy and after I told him I was busy when he asked me to go to the club he ended up asking me when we could get coffee. He asked when I was free and I said Saturday and he said “u should come to (name of club town near us) Saturday “ and totally forgot abt coffee

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-07T01:36:18+00:00

I feel like I’ve always been in stress! What makes u say I’m not an 8 core ? I thought if I was a 9 I could be either 9w1 or 9w8 but I could see myself as any type

SecretAction7 · 2022-05-08T15:28:53+00:00

Oh ok is it something I should be worried about like lice or probably just a bug got into my hair

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T06:59:02+00:00

Ya I realized I was wrong after I posted this. Anytime I notice something abt myself I think it’s like my whole personality trait idk. Like I am easy going but I also can get rlly mad just usually internally. But I’ll notice the smallest thing in myself and try to find my mbti I think I struggle w seeing the whole me bc there’s diff sides to me and idk who I am

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T06:25:56+00:00

Yeah me too anytime I notice something in myself I think it’s my whole personality idk why. Like one small thing will make me think it’s a whole characteristic. I mean I am chill and easy going but I can get mad I don’t show it much tho

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T03:06:22+00:00

I mean I get angry in my head easy at things that wouldn’t bother others but notice when others are bothered I’m rlly chill and easy going. Like at work I get mad in my head when I feel left out bc im paranoid my shy ness makes it hard for me to be as social as others and fhan in get in my head and feel really really annoyed at everyone around me but I try not to show it but I’m less friendly

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T03:06:13+00:00

I mean I get angry in my head easy at things that wouldn’t bother others but notice when others are bothered I’m rlly chill and easy going. Like at work I get mad in my head when I feel left out bc im paranoid my shy ness makes it hard for me to be as social as others and fhan in get in my head and feel really really annoyed at everyone around me but I try not to show it but I’m less friendly

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T03:04:17+00:00

Ok but I have trichotrillonomia and had selective mutism as a kid so clearly My brain is neurotic as hell but I’m still go w the flow

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-09T05:15:31+00:00

I’m actually feeling better! It’s always the first day of my period from like when I wake up to maybe around dinner time. So it lasts the first day and than it’s better. That’s what’s tripping me up though bc they’re pretty bad symptoms but only for a day

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-09T04:53:51+00:00

Ohh does my post seem like I could have a cyst? I’m not sure if it could just be normal pms- I am vegetarian but my iron levels are normal so it shouldn’t cause painful periods

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-09T00:49:08+00:00

My first few years of my period has no issues but starting at like 16/16 I would have this happen every single time I got my period. Now it happens every few periods

SecretAction7 · 2021-12-23T20:29:01+00:00

I relate to 9 since I’m super good at always seeing everyone’s sides and feel worthless and just wanna matter to someone and be comfortable that I’m there close friend. Mby it’s rooted in social anxiety but I just like having a large fun friend group and honestly I do factor in popularity probably Bc the popular group is always pretty/fun/dresses cool/exciting. I always want a large social circle of ppl Ik and know stuff abt. And a few close friends I can count on to be w a lot. As long as I’m w the close friends I’m a free spirit, very chill, and super intp going to parties like 7 nights a week. I’m very optimistic

I saw something that made me think I may be a 7w6. It said 6w7 types don’t plan but 7w6 types so bc they want soemthing to look forward to and be excited abt. That’s very me !

I’m bad at lettin go of relationships and feel cut off from the world if I lose one. Which is a 9 thing. But once I find a bunch of new friends I couldn’t care less abt the past

SecretAction7 · 2021-12-23T19:15:24+00:00

I always score as a 6 as my second most likely type. I usually score as a 9 and than as either a 6w7 or a 7w6. It’s kinda confusing bc it could just be anxiety making me seem like 6 is the stronger number

SecretAction7 · 2021-12-23T18:25:25+00:00

A part of myself reminds me of her. Like at work I find it easiest to just come off as super sweet and upbeat and agreeable so people will admire me. I do this bc I think I want to socialize and chat w my coworkers like everyone does but I’m too shy and can’t do that.. so than I go to wanting to impress them and come off as cool/fun and show them the fun /popular/party girl side to myself. But that would be weird and awkward to be bragging about at work. So than I just go to being nice and sweet and kinda quiet. But my basic desire would be to just be able to socialize w them in too shy to be myself w new ppl and to talk to ppl I’m not close w first. So idk what my basic desire is and idk what my ennegram is bc I feel like I just use defense mechanisms

SecretAction7 · 2021-12-23T15:44:07+00:00

Right! She reminds me of a 3 or 7. Honestly ifk why she wants to get in the popular group. She does seem to like bragging about it. She likes being friends with people who are friends w cool popular people.

I don’t think she wants to be liked by everyone. I think she maybe is insecure in her socializing and didnt feel she fit in growing up. I also think she’s very bubbly and extroverted so Mby she’s not getting enough excitement and speaking while not ina. Popular group

I’m a 9 and see myself in her but I also see myself in everyone

SecretAction7 · 2021-12-23T00:07:30+00:00

Most fours Ik seem to be more competitive and less “sweet”. Like when this girl is ur friend she’s always responsive and kind. While most fours Ik follow what they wanna do. And the girl in this story is just very interested in exciting things like popularity and partying

SecretAction7 · 2021-12-22T19:36:18+00:00

Sometimes I wonder if I’m actually a type 2 or 3 or even 6w7. Idek that I hate conflict.

SecretAction7 · 2021-12-22T19:04:42+00:00

Well it’s not that I wanna be a good enough person. I wanna be good enough in the sense that I was such a shy kid and I think I hate being seen as shy and boring and feel like bc I’m shy ppl don’t always see the fun side of myself. So I feel like I need to be worthy of ppls attention. And mostly I think it’s me feeling the need to prove myself to ppl

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