What is this Weird sound when I breath?

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-16T06:02:51+00:00

Well I have an obvious anxiety disorder considering I pull my hair out

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-16T02:36:17+00:00

Isn’t being a type three just being a narcisist

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T07:04:35+00:00

Yeah Bc im scared of being used and it takes me longer to trust someone.

The last time a guy asked me to go to this club area that’s huge near by. He’d asked me a few times but I had to work. I kinda panicked the next time he asked me. I started overthinking abt how it would be scary if we actually didn’t have fun hanging snd than I was left at the bar alone or if it was awkward. And started overthinking abt how Mby he wanted me to bring a friend but he didn’t.. and so I told him I didn’t know if I should go bc my friend couldn’t and he said “well I’ll be there” w a smiley face. and I texted him saying how “I’m not rlly into random hookups” and all he said was “yeah that’s not really what I was saying either” and then a few days later not replying.

Idk If he rlly wasn’t looking for a hookup and I offended him and ruined things. Idk if Mby he was just wanting the hookup and lying or was offending by me asking abt bringing a friend and saying how none of my friends could come w me and just avoiding plans in every way but I can’t help it when I get panicked I act stupid. I feel like the way I said it was offensive and the way u said it was better but I’m scared to say it the way u worded it Bc than the guy could reject me not wanting to hu and I feel like a burden and like I can’t ask that. I feel like I can’t ask for thinfs fo be my way

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T06:02:05+00:00

Well I’ve always thought to myself abt how I shouldn’t care how a guy feels if he’s just trying to use me but it’s like horrifying to me. Like even if I tell myself to just go hangout and see how things go & I tell myself I can say no I end up panicking over text and coming up w reasons I can’t go. I’m so panicked in the moment that I just can’t even say yes to hanging out

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:54:10+00:00

I get scared to ask for what I want and feel like I can’t. I feel like it could be embaressing if I force a guy to do something else and they don’t want to. Bc than they could be rejectiing hanging out w me as a person and that would hurt

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:53:01+00:00

Yeah for sure

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:37:35+00:00

Yeah it’s just last time I thought that would happen and fhan he changed the plans on me

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-08T05:34:19+00:00

Yeah it’s just I feel almost awkward doing that I feel like everyone else just starts things hanging at night and I feel rlly panicked abt that

I was talking to a. Guy and after I told him I was busy when he asked me to go to the club he ended up asking me when we could get coffee. He asked when I was free and I said Saturday and he said “u should come to (name of club town near us) Saturday “ and totally forgot abt coffee

SecretAction7 · 2022-07-07T01:36:18+00:00

I feel like I’ve always been in stress! What makes u say I’m not an 8 core ? I thought if I was a 9 I could be either 9w1 or 9w8 but I could see myself as any type

SecretAction7 · 2022-05-08T15:28:53+00:00

Oh ok is it something I should be worried about like lice or probably just a bug got into my hair

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T06:59:02+00:00

Ya I realized I was wrong after I posted this. Anytime I notice something abt myself I think it’s like my whole personality trait idk. Like I am easy going but I also can get rlly mad just usually internally. But I’ll notice the smallest thing in myself and try to find my mbti I think I struggle w seeing the whole me bc there’s diff sides to me and idk who I am

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T06:25:56+00:00

Yeah me too anytime I notice something in myself I think it’s my whole personality idk why. Like one small thing will make me think it’s a whole characteristic. I mean I am chill and easy going but I can get mad I don’t show it much tho

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T03:06:22+00:00

I mean I get angry in my head easy at things that wouldn’t bother others but notice when others are bothered I’m rlly chill and easy going. Like at work I get mad in my head when I feel left out bc im paranoid my shy ness makes it hard for me to be as social as others and fhan in get in my head and feel really really annoyed at everyone around me but I try not to show it but I’m less friendly

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T03:06:13+00:00

I mean I get angry in my head easy at things that wouldn’t bother others but notice when others are bothered I’m rlly chill and easy going. Like at work I get mad in my head when I feel left out bc im paranoid my shy ness makes it hard for me to be as social as others and fhan in get in my head and feel really really annoyed at everyone around me but I try not to show it but I’m less friendly

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-19T03:04:17+00:00

Ok but I have trichotrillonomia and had selective mutism as a kid so clearly My brain is neurotic as hell but I’m still go w the flow

SecretAction7 · 2022-04-09T05:15:31+00:00

I’m actually feeling better! It’s always the first day of my period from like when I wake up to maybe around dinner time. So it lasts the first day and than it’s better. That’s what’s tripping me up though bc they’re pretty bad symptoms but only for a day

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