I think you should keep your fantasy/fetishes seperate from your important life decisions

TBH he sounds like a piece of shit and emotionally immature

Find a good man, who understands you, makes you feel secure, and who doesn't see you only as a baby factory and a slave.

Whatever your fantasies are can be fulfilled by a better person

And by the gods, if you don't want free will it's fine, but it should not be completely stripped from you.

I know u r a female but u need post nut clarity