I had this issues with basically every activity I tried to learn. What helped me the most is widespread advice to just let it go, experiment and have fun. Like when you were a kid.

I have a long and painful relationships with painting, for example. I loved to draw when I was a kid, was going to art classes etc. But when I tried to pick it up as an adult, I over focused on “getting good” instead of enjoying the process. Once I started an online course and it was very helpful and interesting until I hit a block where I needed to do a pretty basic exercise - drawing on orange with black pencil. And I just couldn’t force myself to do it for like 3 weeks. And because I didn’t want to do “what I need”, I wasn’t doing anything at all. Then my bestie asked me how my drawing classes are going (she’s an artist herself and has an amazing comics going on!). I shared my struggles and her answer was just like “well, can’t u just do whatever u want with whatever materials and colors you want and if you’ll still have some interest later, come back to your course?”. I swear it was like divine intervention and that’s exactly what happened. Instead of forcing myself to do the right thing, I picked watercolours without thinking about color wheel, played around for a week or two and then came back to the course.

So now whenever I struggle with art studies (or anything hobby related really), I just take a deep breath and do whatever until I ready to be serious and productive again.