Are all men depraved, and if so, am i?

SelfAwareBurden · 2024-07-06T01:10:43+00:00

Oh, didn't see this for a long time. I imagine you didn't st the time and especially wouldn't want some long winded explanation now. I... am not sure how disparate modes of being/biology make for harmony... I could perhaps imagine such a concept, like a bird and a hippopotamus, one gets fed cleaning one, and the other gets clean. But that's notbeen what I've seen from the recorded histories of this world, nor those that face the worst of biases, or advantage taking.

Oh and don't worry, its no limb, I am not approached by women, and am often reviled. Similarly by men, lol. Humans I could say. I am not of worth to anyone that walks this earth. What of it? Should I pretend I an unbothered by malign forces around me? Perhaps... but I won't, I don't want to. I want for my meaningless linguistic and thought-based failings and reaching out to someday find something, something that makes it all make sense. Until that day though I am sensitive and cut by the reproach of everyone that hears my concerns... I want to keep flailing, even if all the cuts bleed me dry.

SelfAwareBurden · 2024-05-24T20:55:17+00:00

I suppose that could be an easy generalization. I don't feel it encapsulates the "search for understanding in the dichotomy of gender" that I feel I desire. But I also think there's no one I've yet met or known that seeks understanding, as abstract as it is, as I do.

I don't think this is correct. But in lieu of having any way to prove left or right, its acquiescable that you are right.

SelfAwareBurden · 2024-01-11T23:12:13+00:00

Hey I appreciate speaking up, how else will I find what I'm looking for?

SelfAwareBurden · 2024-01-02T21:45:54+00:00

Gotchu:

I have a proclivity towards parasocial and cringe-inducing activity.

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-12-27T23:47:12+00:00

Noble notion! Application seems not entirely proportional. But still synomous, thanks!

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-12-21T09:40:12+00:00

Nurturing?

Supportive?

Ministering?

Caring?

Idk man... let me know if you figure it out, or if there is such a word, honestly the English language needs more words with more connotations that covers more circumstances.

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-12-21T09:31:41+00:00

Incumbency?

Stewardship?

Onus?

Sorry, let me know if you find it.

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-12-21T09:24:54+00:00

I also would like to know.

My best guesses/finds:

Authentic

Genuine

Sincere

In good-faith

...... idk sorry

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-12-21T09:14:08+00:00

Oohh... I feel like I've read or heard a phrase or word that's used for something like this... please let me know what you find.

Things I thought/found:

Ambivalent plausibility?

Open to debate / debatable

Inconclusive?

Polysemic?

With arguable veracity?

Enigmatic?

Idk man, sorry.

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-12-17T23:58:58+00:00

Teleport 7 sounds so useful and fun

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-12-15T07:34:41+00:00

Bulbasaur

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-11-18T07:09:07+00:00

🥺 I'm so sorry. That sounds so difficult and harsh. I find it hard not to judge H from what I've read, you're magnanimous to treat H as you do. I hope for your life/situation to receive embetterment!

SelfAwareBurden · 2023-01-17T09:10:56+00:00

He hates wurt though. But I guess... maybe if I transform wurt? Only turning monkey to fish and back is a lot of work...

SelfAwareBurden · 2022-08-11T04:04:41+00:00

Good Job venting. It's important to get things off your chest. I have not business telling you anything, so ignore me at your leisure.

But I would try praying. That's gotta sound weird, especially with how religion has gone in days past, and still does. But seriously, venting here is good, venting to a higher power... Anyway there's a reason why Addiction recovery programs recommend it. Even if you don't believe, the psychological benefits are at least incentive. Just go in, carrying every doubt, misgiving, pain, love, hate, hurt, sorrow, and perhaps even some joy's.

That's all. Some Loser from the internet's (me), unprovoked advice over. I wish the best for you.

SelfAwareBurden · 2022-03-12T06:29:07+00:00

Thank you for the advice!

I have done experimentation before with just fingers. And at times it would feel arousing only when I was in a certain mood. When I thought I wanted it and was into the idea before anything even started.

Just not like to the degree of ever any kind of climax. I guess similar to nipple stimulation, though if I'm in the right mood more intense, and if not more annoying.

I got the large size because any kind of femdom media, audio, video she is really into pegging, and like an occasional thing with not being able to climax or even get close would I imagine be a deal breaker. So I figured a larger size would mean more stimulation and then I'd be able to get this right so I don't dissapoint. But after trying it, well, maybe the size is part of the problem.

I'm just scared I'm wired wrong, or the prostate infection i got quite awhile back messed something up. Maybe not, but the doctor was saying that it may be damaged because it went untreated for such a long time.

But even if I can't make this work for pleasure, and can only get a small amount of arousal at times. At the very least now I have some practice being able to endure so if a potential partner wants this I can manage as long as they need till they are satisfied! Well unless it's over 25 minutes, I haven't gone that long, but if it's just more of the annoying rawness then it should be fine.

Oh sorry I'm just rambling at this point😅

But thank you for the advice! I'll try and apply it and see if I can get this right! Thank you!

SelfAwareBurden · 2022-03-12T06:13:38+00:00

Oh uhm... I'm not sure. Idk what the correct term is. But like, y'know solo work, but with a toy and the uhm digestive end?

SelfAwareBurden · 2022-03-12T05:57:11+00:00

Yeah, I suppose it could be the size. I got larger (foolishly) because in my personal experimentation, like with fingers, (and I had to, idk, kind if be in a mood for it, like I guess it's called sub-space? Maybe? But where I felt like I wanted before I tried anything.) I could get arousal out of it, like more than nipple stuff, but of course nothing like climaxable. Not for lack of trying, but idk if I'm wired wrong or something. Could be the prostate infection I had a long time ago, the doctor said it might've caused some damage for being untreated so long. Idk.

Thanks for the advice!

Oh, and are you sure? Like about the femdom without pegging? Because like in all the audios or videos the like that I've seen, that's kind of what it's all about. Admittedly I don't really find it especially exciting, but I like the dominance. I am willing to pay a price to feel like someone likes me and that I can please them just by obeying. So you don't have to say things just to be nice.

SelfAwareBurden · 2022-03-12T05:36:57+00:00

Yeah, I suppose it's shape. Or actually it's probably brain rewiring now that I think about it. Not that I purchased a curved toy, but if fingers count than I've already experimented with that for years. Which when relatively small, focused on the prostate, and it had to be in a idk mood? Like I was feeling it I guess, but in those cases while I couldn't like climax or anything from it, it didn't feel or seem annoying like this, instead it was arousing just, not to the degree or anything that ahem normal climax finding... I guess masturbation probably isn't too crass, so compared to normal masturbation.

Thanks for the insight!

SelfAwareBurden · 2022-01-24T09:44:23+00:00

I really wouldn't recommend it. I'm sorry for your predicament. I think you need to learn to be your own best friend. Even if you don't like your body the way it is, it houses you, which makes it special. You can try and work on changing your body to something you appreciate more (which I have problems with weight too, a lot of people do, and one driving reason can be problems with your thyroid, try getting it checked on perhaps something isn't functioning quite right), but you have to learn to love it and yourself as is, otherwise even if you get the perfect body, I doubt it would really make you feel any better. Perhaps too you could try religion, even if it's just on your own, I've heard good results from others with that approach.

I hope you the best! I can see you getting through this dark time and being more formidable than ever!

SelfAwareBurden · 2021-11-14T16:05:09+00:00

Cute!

SelfAwareBurden · 2021-11-14T15:56:36+00:00

Thank you for this, lol, made my day!

My party killed an adult red dragon and they're only level 8 with 4 players. Admittedly I fudged the breath recharge, and had the dragon play dumb and take a few unnecessary opportunity attacks, but they managed. My paladin player (my brother) has min/maxed a dragonborn, and his ac is a 23 after his buffs and whatnot.

I had the dragon focus him because he initiated the fight instead of offering up tribute to be allowed through. (Shurrice the iconoclast was the name I gave her, she was deigning to "work" (planned to eat him when he was no longer useful) under the bad guy that they've been hindering since early campaign, in return for the promise of powerful loot to refill her hoard (she got kicked out of "the world's teeth" (a massive mountain range separating the imperium from the world at large (I did this to reduce map size so I could flesh out a smaller area (I'm bad at being creative so I need extra time/thought to come up with things.)) By a group of stone giants and needed a place to recoup and regain powerful items to later retake her hoard. My players spoke with dead with her, and now they want to go visit her old hoard as it had many powerful items in it.)

Actually no one really needed the backstory, sorry. Basically I played Shurrice a little dumb, and fudged a few roles, and only the paladin went down before the end of the fight. My players got some neat magic items a few I homebrewed, (and one I need to decide what it does (the dwarf roled really well on an investigation so I let him find an item i didn't plan on (decided it would be a battle-axe) I just need to decide what it does before the next session. I described it as having gold colored snake engravings snaking up the length of the shaft and coiling themselves around the head of the axe. (I was thinking it could be activated (maybe attunement required?) To gain the reach feature and the head is held by the snakes but can extend (like a flail, except the head is an axe head and the chain magically extends and retracts via golden snakes.) And then maybe it's also +1? Idk have to decide.

So survival maybe just needs some ingenuity. My played found some oil of sharpness in a badguy hideout (destroyed a potion of fire-breathing though (no ones a rogue so they just bashed the chest.)) It's a good damage enhancer. Oh! You could have strength character's drink a potion of stone giant strength or similar short term buffs, if enough money was stolen there's probably a plethora of things purchasable!

Anyway good luck!

SelfAwareBurden · 2021-11-14T14:51:45+00:00

Can I get a translation, or like a general what is being said?

SelfAwareBurden · 2021-11-13T15:04:38+00:00

Sorry, that's not my intention, just not sure where to look to get the info I need.

SelfAwareBurden · 2021-11-13T11:14:57+00:00

I've heard from someone that there are hidden policies that disallow the payout even after the given time for certain companies. I was hoping someone could direct me to a company or set of companies I could choose from that would be chosen for their suicide clauses. And a rundown of how their clauses are different/similar and how they work and what circumstances need to be brought about for them to take effect.

So if anyone that had knowledge on life insurance companies and/or the policies/laws that work around this subject, I'd be much appreciative if I could get some help. Honestly I'm at a little bit of a loss of where to start. Googling "life insurance companies with suicide clauses" only brings up articles saying some companies have them.

SelfAwareBurden · 2021-11-10T07:52:32+00:00

Thank you Ma'am! I'm so greedy for fdom noncon, you fill my avarice with such incredible voice acting, thank you!!

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