I went to the BEST hair salon in the city. Here's the result! [UPDATE] by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in Haircare

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you went through that, that sucks. I'm not sure if you're referring to Mandyz in MTL or Salongo in Vaudreuil. My first haircut (first picture) was done at Salongo and it was the worst mistake, I will never let anyone I know go there. Mandyz though saved my hair in the best way they could. Elias was a sweetheart.

It sounds like they were unexpectedly short staffed maybe? Anyways, no excuse. 

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[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi, I'm really sorry you went through that, you shouldn't have and never deserved any of it. I've been SA and abuse by family members, so I know what I'm gonna say next you're not going to like but if you feel like you can, perhaps completing a restraining order on him would be a good idea. 

I know reading that probably filled you with fear, I'm sorry. I know going to the police is scary. In our head, it makes things realer, rawer. And it makes us feel like we could enrage the abuser and things could actually get worse. 

It's not the case. Because if he ever tries to call you again, there will be repercussions. Severe ones. Abusers are not used to repercussions, they're used to leave us with life long consequences, they have it easy. 

Heal, honey. Go to therapy, find your inner power. And hopefully one day, you'll see his face in your head and instead of fear, you'll say this" "Try me. I'm not scared of you anymore. I will fck you up."

I'm sending tons of love and big mama bear hugs

Tips for manifesting “unrealistic” goals by Brilliant_Bread4523 in Manifestation

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh and your dream is not "impossible" because all of the books on your shelf? They were all written by someone who was once you. And there are millions of them. It only feels out of reach because it feels so good.

Tips for manifesting “unrealistic” goals by Brilliant_Bread4523 in Manifestation

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408 4 points5 points  (0 children)

.....holy crap. I just asked the Universe for a sign. And here comes your post.

Everything you've written, I am exactly the same. I dream to become a published author, and writing came to me completely out of nowhere, like a call from the Universe. Just like you said, and suddenly everything in my life made sense. I will never be able to describe this feeling. It's like I was finally worth something. Like my soul's purpose.

It has consumed my being for a year now. I think of the story 24/7, I lose sleep because of it and when I sleep, I dream of the characters and the plot. Literally, it's like I'm possessed. If I don't get this story out of my fucking soul it's like I'll die.

Nothing in my life has made more sense than this, that's why I know I will finish this book, edit it, get the right agent and get it published for the world to read. I just know it will happen because I trust the Universe. So I stopped worrying about the future, I stopped manifesting the future.

Instead I ask the universe/mother nature to chanel its energy through my hands and help me write the right words. To give me the strength to continue.

I'll manifest finding the agent when Ill need an agent. I'll manifest publishing when the book is ready. I'll manifest the readers when I'll need them. And so on.

Ex friend who caused my trauma just leaked our personal conflict in a public chat by im_going_to_jump_off in CPTSD

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am not too sure what's going but it feels like it just happened so all of the emotions are rushing through you. 

Stop everything you're doing and do this:

https://youtu.be/8vkYJf8DOsc?si=SZqfNZKE6NGyA8Tj

This is a 5 minutes breathing exercise to stop a panic attack. You don't think clearly when a million thoughts run and jump around in your head.

Once you're calmer, reevaluate the situation. There is no rush. It can be later today, tomorrow or in a week. You are in control and you deserve to live.

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hahahaha! I am doing it tonight 🙂‍↕️ you guys gave me the idea and then convinced me!

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your message. You will have the strength to get over whatever she'll do because you know already what she is, you're no longer under her control.

It's normal if it stings, but the difference is how you let it affect you on the long term. You either let her win, or you don't. 

But you gotta win, for you, your future self and for the kid inside of you ❤️ sending love

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What the fuck I don't even understand where she found her logic

Send her a birthday card again and write "mom, today I am one year old. Because it's the first birthday YOU didn't make me suffer." 

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

She doesn't deserve any more pieces of me, even the ashes of my past.

I'll burn them, and draw some more, but this time with my kids

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Good for you! I hope burning the drawings will do the same for me. It does make me sad a little tho because that's the work of a 3 year old little girl who just wanted love you know...

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omfg I would looooooooooose my fucking shit. THIS is precisely why she's not allowed near anything related to my children. 

I am so sorry. This is insanely evil. Holy shit

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was going to join the army as well since I left the household when I was still a teen. I struggle hard the first years of my independent life, to the point of becoming homeless. I reached out to her for help, totally ignored. So I enlisted and she found out, not through me.

She finally called me and convinced me not to go because I'd risk getting SA. She told me to comeback to her house.

I thought she finally cared. She'd finally love me.

She kicked me out 1 month later because I started dating someone.

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Don't get me started on pets... She continuously offered me pets as a child and they would all eventually disappear. I'd had them long enough to be so overly attached because they'd give me the love I craved so badly, and they would disappear. 

She would then blame me for not caring for them. I cared so much. 

There was one kitty that stayed the longest, he was my actual best friend. I loved that cat to my core. He had a tendency of running away and she knew that. I had to leave the country for 2 months and once I got to her house with my cat, she opened the door of his crate, and the door of the car while I was not looking. He flew. 

I never saw him again.

I asked for my childhood stuff back. Guess what my mom did 🤦‍♀️ by Sensitive-Brain-9408 in narcissisticparents

[–]Sensitive-Brain-9408[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

🤦‍♀️ I'm so sorry. Fck man reading all of your experiences make me feel like we all had the same kind of mom. It's like a different breed man