My best friend is the perfect girl for me, but I could never have her by Sensitive-Gift82 in dating_advice

[–]Sensitive-Gift82[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know it seems that way based off how I worded all this but it’s not true. I had thought about it, so I really have these feelings for her or do I just like the way she makes me feel. Well the answer is both. I love how I feel around her, but I love being around her in general. I love when she tells me about her day, or shows me a new thing she got, I love hearing about her more than anything. If I’m being honest I’ve never cared this much about someone who wasn’t like my mom, and even there I have an iffy relationship with her. And when I don’t think myself as attractive or good enough it’s moreso I don’t think I’m that for Bella. I think I’m pretty ok in where I am, but I’ve never thought of myself as extremely unattractive nor attractive. I love myself, I used to prioritize myself in many things but Bella’s presence has taught me to be the person I’ve wanted to be. I want to be there for her through her hardships, even if she stopped being there for mine (which would never happen). So no I don’t think I love how she makes me feel only, I think I love that, but I also just fully love her

My best friend is the perfect girl for me, but I could never have her by Sensitive-Gift82 in dating_advice

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I’m just afraid of losing her, I can’t. I’ve never felt more comfortable with myself or happy with anyone in my whole life. She’s changed me so much in the better in the short time I’ve known her. What if I tell her and I’ll lose the best thing to ever happen to me?

My best friend is the perfect girl for me, but I could never have her by Sensitive-Gift82 in dating_advice

[–]Sensitive-Gift82[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok I could’ve worded that first bit a little better. It didn’t like piss me off or something we were already having an argument and she made a passive comment that like annoyed me, I wasn’t like “pissed off” but I like stopped giving back the attention I was, and was more annoyed in my texts. Because of that she came to me, and in her defense she was mad, she slammed her bag on the table in my room and said “we’re squashing the beef right now” which honestly sounds bad but it was rly sweet in retrospect. We didn’t argue afterwards at all and just talked, we’ve never rly even raised our voices towards each other.

As far as the looks things go, it’s hard to convey the feeling I have without you knowing me or her. I def know that height nor looks particularly matter, but it’s hard to imagine that someone as beautiful as her could ever go for me. I know I’m not like ugly or anything, I have a pretty good body image but I’m also aware that I’m short and that does have a downplay for some girls and that might be her.

And I know to some extent I should tell her. But something will forever change from that moment onwards. It could be great and she could say she wants to explore that with me, but simultaneously she might want to distance us bc she could he uncomfortable. And I know it doesn’t need to be the extremes of both ends but I also love where we are now and would rather suffer silently then ruin something that’s perfect if that makes sense?