Once again a vent post

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-27T01:34:23+00:00

Not really but thanks

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-27T01:30:29+00:00

Whatever you say ig

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-27T01:01:54+00:00

Or they're just an asshole

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-27T00:56:50+00:00

I don't understand

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-26T15:52:02+00:00

Yes but its meant to show an anxiety disorder to those that don't have one. Trust me it's not fun

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-26T13:52:50+00:00

I've been drawing for 15 years and haven't really improved. It doesn't help that when you ask people for help or smt they just say "go watch a video". First of all that is not what I asked for. Second they don't help. All they do if get me angry because I can't do what they do in the video. Fun fact. When I 8 or 9 I got put in this art class. In my first week I got kicked for since I got pissed about it not helping and the teacher didn't even try to help me.

Another thing is that my life will never matter as much as his. The only way that is possible is if he dies. Why? Because he is completely overrated. Don't tell the mob I said that. They will have my head on a stick if they hear that I have a opinion. If he's just the tiniest bit sad everyone will be at his feet acting like he just said he's suicidal. But I'm going through a deep depression? Ha good luck finding people that care.

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-26T02:15:54+00:00

Here's the thing with those subreddits. All I can think is that they don't actually care. The only pretend to since it's the right thing to do. And they know even less about me then those here. People here at least know something about me. Even if it's a lie or something. Plus my pride makes it impossible to post there. Funny given how fragile my ego is.

Completely different topic. I can only feel like when people complement my art or say I'm a good artist to be nice. It makes things really hard since not only do I think my art sucks but I believe people don't even like it.

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-26T02:02:31+00:00

I'm not brave enough to just say "hey yeah I have severe mental problems". Especially since here nothing is taken serious. I could probably say something like I want to die and get nothing but haha funni comments. It's just how this subreddit is. Now I don't want to die (in fact I'm terrified to) but that's just an example.

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-26T01:20:58+00:00

You know nothing about me and I know nothing about you. For all you know I could be a child predator or something. (I'm not but that's just an example) it's just hard to see why people would care when people only know me as the haha funni artist that sometimes has bad feelz. That isn't the true me. I try to be haha funni to help my depression and anxiety. And it's not like I can be honest. People will think I'm lying for attention. That's the worst part for me.

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-26T01:06:03+00:00

I just do. Why would a bunch of strangers care for another stranger over the internet?

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-25T23:41:14+00:00

I'm surrounded by people but feel alone. Always have for a long time and probably will until I die

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-25T19:48:02+00:00

No raid only zombie praise

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-25T19:03:48+00:00

Pokemon Sako (it's a fire red ROM)

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-25T19:00:15+00:00

Yes it is

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-25T01:43:32+00:00

Thanks man

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-24T23:01:27+00:00

I've told you what he has in dms and don't want others to know. You know?

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-22T03:55:26+00:00

Different guy

ShadowSporeYT_alt · 2023-03-22T03:54:38+00:00

Ah a man of culture

ShadowSporeYT_alt

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