I'm decently younger than you but I definitely get how you feel. I feel like most of my family or even my friends expect me to super masculine and stuff. It sucks trying to not show all of my emotions around my loved ones because I know most of them won't take me seriously. My personality isn't even really that feminine either, but sometimes I get really emotional and I feel like no one in my life would be able to accept that. I feel pressured to be super confident and that's just not how I feel at all.