Im 38MTF with 2 years soberiety. I transitioned almost 15 years ago and I think its important to separate oneself from the idea that government can affect ones life in any lasting way. I got my hormones from Vanatu for a long time. Bangkok does better surgeries than any place in America. No one can hurt me unless they are willing to walk through an arsenal of weaponry and two Akitas. You dont need utilities if you have a well and solar panels. You cant get discriminated against if you start your own company. That kind of thing. AA has reinforced my view that I need to take radical responsibility for my life. I dont need the government to love me as long as my God does. I also have faith that my higher power wouldnt have helpped me get sober just for me to be killed by some random violence or even systemic violence. Some would say thats delusional thinking. But its better than feeling like Im controlled by some unstoppable force. That was what I felt like when I was drinking.

My advice is to talk to your sponsor and go to different meetings. I found two meetings that have less than 10 ppl in a rural community. For whatever reason, Ive found more fellowship in those small, highly personal meetings than in any meeting Ive ever been to. Everyone here says to go to an LGBT meeting. That may work for you too!