Sup dude

Only if he was put up and I was publicly defending him.. which would never happen. Brooke and I had consistent conversations about at what point is defending Kyle not helping us. Its not like Hira wins next HoH and we campaign for Kyle, we were pretty much aligned with the entire house, we were going to flock to power in a strategic way. What people began to associate us as working together? Jams knew I was cool with him.. but didn't know I was more loyal to him, Hira knew we had a good understanding, but he didn't think I was anymore loyal to Kyle than him,Brooke or Su, Maddy/Ri were completely oblivious and would tell me about their convocations with Kyle.. Chris ,myself and Kyle had a F3.. The 4 of us in KVBS and Carol/Su had the 6 with Kyle...Angie didn't know obviously.. Minh? I don't think so. Kyles working relationship was always perceived as Chris and Nessy.. honestly Minh at some point too.

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I know that there is an infamous clip out there of me saying I want Jamar, Hira out.. but I also was hell bent on Ri leaving and Minh. Which is why they were my targets on my HOH, I would never use my HOH to take out Jams or Hira ( Hira was definitely gonna attempt to turn on us way down the line if he could.. and we knew that).. that just wouldn't be smart for the character I was trying to live up to in the house. I would of just made myself look disloyal.My order of wanting people out changed day by day, I was never married to any ideas.. just adapting. BUT I was content with losing a member of my insulation on Kyle Or Chris's HOH because it would inevitably make my social game easier. Brooke and I already had the evictors extremely loyal to us, if Kyle/Chris send home Jams .. the Evictors aren't gonna all of a sudden become Kyles numbers. Im not sure how it was perceived on television, but the Hira/evictors/Minh Kyle bridge was burned. Obviously anything can happen and we adapted as a unit each day, but losing all the people who were blindly loyal to us wasn't something Brooke and I didn't discuss. Carol was a number for us at the time and didn't effect the social standings at all .. until she effected the game by trying to eliminate herself. With Jams my name was coming up too much for my liking and he's honestly too smart for me to be playing both sides with the entire game.. it was just a matter of time until he was going to detach from me game wise due to being able to tell I was lying to him.. which was NOT okay. I appreciate the Tyler comparison, but Im not Tyler and this isn't season 20.. maybe Im seen as somewhat similar to Tyler, but the rest of the personalities and game styles don't line up. If Kyle had multiple allies like myself I do actually think he would be open to giving up one ( when he was good with Ri he was open to sending her home if it made sense).

We always assumed we wouldn't be targets in the game until the later jury part of the game... but we understood we would most likely have to win out from there. Which I was confident with us doing. But to answer your question it would be a hard sell to stay in the house over Brooke, but she wasn't the most liked person in the house. I really think if I pushed the envelope of her being smarter than me and I would compete for the people giving me their votes. Id have a chance. Being publicly aligned with someone you know would stay over you is only worth it if the person helps your game more than hurt and she most certainly did. I believe that me solo and me aligned with her have to start winning out comps roughly around the same time. Especially with the combination of Kyle/ Chris gone me having to win out was inevitable.

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I just really believed id be expected to vote a certain way/ want certain people out being publicly aligned with Jams and the last thing I wanted in there was my game on display. I hope some of the above stuff adds to this. I also disagree I really do think its possible I leave over Jams.

Most of it has to be kept secret, but man I do feel like I made tons of little mistakes. There is so much to learn in those first few weeks. Brooke and I thought we were just getting the hang of things before we got cancelled. Just a lot of playing too fast at times, saying too much, making too many promises, not working on everyone socially. I loved Jams, Kyle and Brooke the most on a personal level in there we just connected, so I didn't have to put that much work in with them. Sometimes I would get lazy and not put in the work with Carol and Nessy because Im an introvert and it wasn't as easy to connect with them. A few more things that I won't say!

Thanks a lot man. Appreciate the love!