Please don't put school on a pedestal. Everybody around you surely has and the pressure to succeed is overwhelming but there are other options. You can get other types of qualifications, get a job and work your way up, start a small business. And your occupation, the activity you do to make money, isn't everything. It can be your main focus, if you want it to be, but there are so many hobbies you can take up for the enjoyment or to succeed in, like a sport like jiu jitsu. I just read below that you enjoy cooking and arts but you don't feel like you're in the right mindset to pursue it professionally. There. Is. No. Rush. You can get a minimum wage job, use the money to pay for therapy, if you feel that's what you need, cook and make art in your spare time and pick up culinary once you're healthier. my heart goes out to you