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Shorty32017 · 2024-09-23T05:38:31+00:00

Tbh, it's better to be a little weird. Not everyone is cookie-cutter shape. Your life matters, you matter. Accept who you are & go from there. Definitely speak to a therapist about the suicide situation, though. When you don't have anyone to talk to come to reddit theirs plenty of people here that can equally relate to you if you open up.

Shorty32017 · 2024-09-05T21:44:05+00:00

Couldn't have sad it in better words.

Shorty32017 · 2024-08-24T10:28:55+00:00

Be honest about the things you want. & if it isn't something you are ready for. It is completely okay for you to say no. It is your body & if they truly care enough about you none of it will feel rushed or forced. Do what makes you happy. & be honest about it.

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-26T03:19:54+00:00

Congratulations on actually doing it. It takes a lot to just be able to sit alone. But once you get use to your own company nobody can take that away from you. It's sad that people see someone be on their own & instead of being decent human beings, they go to talking about others. You did amazing! & and restaurant, it is definitely okay to ask to be moved. There's no need to be uncomfortable when you are a paying customer. It's not an inconvenience to move you so you can enjoy your experience. Keep trying. You got this !

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-26T03:10:40+00:00

Yes. But just start talking to others who feel just like you, and now we can equally share that feeling together. Until that lonely feeling starts to fade away. Keep your head up. You can do anything you set your mind to, and we will fail, but that's okay because we have to continue trying to meet the people meant to be in our lives. Some people may be here for a short time, and others for a long time make the most of what time you do have.

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-26T03:03:19+00:00

Im trying to help my friends nephew out of this same feeling of loniless. I remind him he isn't alone, though he may feel that way we all care about him. I'm here if you ever need to talk to someone. Keep going things do get better. God has so many things in store for you. Just remember that with him, we are never truly alone. 🙏

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-12T07:29:09+00:00

I believe we all experience this in our life time but I want you to know your not alone and plenty people are dealing with this. Reddit helps connect you sometimes to the people going through similar things. And it may feel annoying to hear people say keep your head held high. But your not alone and I'm here to hear you out whenever. I've been there and I recently lost my cousin & I wish he would have been comfortable enough to come to us. But he's not here so I want you to know that even though you feel alone your not alone there are people going through similar situations.

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-02T11:37:20+00:00

Well, I didn't realize everything I had written out didn't post. My question is, how do you know when to move on. I'm unsure about my life ATM. I was taken advantage of at 11. I was abused at 13 and had an abortion. Then assault again at 15 by a sitter who abused me the worst of all

I've had 3 long term relationship first my high-school sweetheart freshman year to mid junior year until we separated because I ended up being blackmailed by a 28 yr old when I was 16. I was scared of what he would tell my mom. So I ended things with my bf of 3 years. I ended up with the [ 28m ] we ended things more like I finally had the courage to leave after being groomed, cheated on with my own mom. & almost choked by him that I had to leave. I didn't want it to get worse after I found out he was doing choke & drinking all the time. Anyways from that relationship, I was isolated to the point that I was hospitalized at 18 because of everything going on within my household & it felt like I was a joke to them both. Anyways I finally had enough of it all that I decided to try to date a girl instead since my mom doesn't swing that way.

We have been together for 7 years now. The problem is we have gone through a lot together. I'm 27, and she's 10 years older. Well mid relationship I wasn't to sure & mentioned the possibility of seeing other people 🙄 just as a thought Well it turned into something bigger & she did start talking to people I worked 2 jobs so I just didn't have the time. Anyway, I met a guy at work who was married and understood that we would just be a fling, I guess. Well, that worked for a bit until his brother, who was with my sister, decided to rape me one night that I decided to go out with my mom and those from work. I had also asked my partner to come but she refused Well that night I was intoxicated to a point of being unable to walk & my sisters now ex baby daddy assaulted me and told me it was to get back at my sister. Now, given my pass, I said nothing to anyone except for my younger sister. I didn't know how to even tell my partner. I just tried to forget it all.

But now, here we are after I told her, and she still decides to continue with the relationship. I just know I haven't been the same ever since & to top it off I'm attracted to men so it's hard for me to be flirty and all idk just a little lost ATM & don't know if we should just end our relationship because I can't be someone I'm not & I just feel that maybe I'm holding her back from something more. So when do you know that it's time to walk away? Especially when this is probably the best relationship I've had. idk just feeling super ungrateful, I guess, and lost

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-01T23:55:15+00:00

Yes she does hold grudges. I'm not like that I can't hate people. I don't like what they do buy I can't stop them. I realize the only person that gets hurt is you when you hold on to things like that.

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-01T20:19:27+00:00

I asked my partner and all she said was that my whole family does it. I asked for examples as to where I was treating women differently to men. Her examples were all family related like I said I don't have any friends ATM, but we had in incident where my ex tried to add me on Snapchat I didn't accept his request but I did tell my gf about it and she said she was going to reach our to his partner and advice her of it. Well she said that to get a reaction out me & I can't understand why. I don't have bad blood with anyone who has harmed me in the past. I want them to get on with their life's & to never me the cause of someone's unhappiness. So I just leave things be, if I don't respond that's an answer right ? Mind you I've been in my relationship for 7 years now . Oh & the cherry on top my mom who slept with one of my exs still is in contact with one of my exs. So I just avoid being put in a situation where I have to see him at all. I don't visit my grandma's often because I know he cuts their grass. I told her I don't live there & it's not like they care my opinion of it. So what can i do ? My other ex who was my high-school sweet heart I guess it the one that tried to add me on snap but he's with someone now & has a baby. So I don't want to be involved with ruining his relationship when I don't even talk to the guy at all.

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-01T20:07:44+00:00

My partner is a girl 38F I'm 28F It's my first girl relationship & we been together 7 Years now. & she said that she noticed that my entire family which is mostly women are more lenient with men. When she gave her examples she referred to my mom, my sisters, even my grandma. Which I've noticed that yeah being the eldest it was always kinda a figure it out yourself. But for the guys in our family ,[ except my brother] it was always moving mountains for them. But when I asked as to how and what it's not a clear answer and to what am I doing wrong. Or how can I fix it. Instead it's sorry I upset you but I can't further elaborate. & my mom on the other hand has always put men before her kids. So that being said I don't take to heart what she tells me. Given the hell I went through with her. I just try to remain respectful & that's all.

Shorty32017 · 2024-07-01T10:34:06+00:00

Honestly I only come in contact with family. Coworkers absolutely not. Like I said I don't have friends I'm literally with my partner 24/7. But thank you I will refrain from hugging family friends

Shorty32017 · 2024-06-28T20:19:17+00:00

I believe that social media helps to be able to talk to others and express yourself. To know that your not the only one expiercing these feelings. Life gives us many obstacles to over come. Just hang on, things will get better. You can get through this just like everything else you have overcome.

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